ORDINARY LIFE

Good morning, it's 6:oo am here in a somewhat cooler Phoenix Arizona, so lets get started shall we? I've been undergoing a big releasing stage and things have wound down somewhat these past few days, it seems that I've released some significant resistance this time around and I AM noticing the difference, but where's my bliss? Is my work done? Will I manifest the big stuff now? If these are questions one would be asking themselves then it wouldn't be long before the resistance would resurface and all their progress would be in vain. Releasing resistance and expecting instant results won't go very far, this is when it's best to sort things out and prioritize what's truly wanted as there may be some changes or modifications we'll wish to make regarding our intentions and desires. I've had the whole past summer to reflect and release, to decide what stays and what goes, where I want to ultimately live, how big of changes I want to make etc. It would seem that after five years now I'd have everything figured out, not even close, there may be less resistance to deal with but I still can't see the broader picture here so I'm not worried about trying to figure it all out. So where DO I go from here? well first off, I don't need to see the big picture, that's not my job nor my worry, broader self will manage that, my only job is to make decisions, to gain clarity from the contrast, experience physical life to my choosing, after all I AM the conscious co-creator here. Through all of this however, something else has occurred, desire feels more boring and mundane, yes, I'm occasionally thinking about what I want, but it feels more like I care less and less about desire in general, it seems that I appreciate more of what I already have and this newfound appreciation has only grown even more as I've released yet more resistance. A wise deduction would be that launching desire from a place of ''whatever'' seems to be the key to allowing it's physical manifestation, when we make a ''big deal'' out of a certain goal or ''desire'' we seem to come from a mindset of ''our very lives DEPEND on it'' so we'll get very serious about the whole manifestation process but isn't this supposed to be fun? I will testify that releasing big resistance isn't any fun at all but what about after that? My how we tend to take life so serious! especially in these times, I'll admit that it's challenging to say the least but we almost have to come back to being child-like in our approach with reality creation to be successful co-creators on this so-called physical plane of existence. It's really no big deal here, whatever it is, we may want something really bad, so much so that our very existence depends on it, but it's really quite the opposite actually, and although it may take time to ''sink in'' we'll eventually realize that we exist and we WILL desire and with desire comes expansion. It is recommended to make peace with our desires and not to be at war with them, meaning that we're fighting their manifestation by trying to control the outcomes, forcing things to happen instead of allowing them to happen more naturally. If we are beginning to feel bored about our desires when we think about them guess what?, they're closer to realization than we think because we'll simply get tired of waiting for them to show up and eventually that ''I don't care anymore'' attitude will sink in and this is key here, the Universe cannot be manipulated or fooled, your feelings don't lie, nothing, and I mean NOTHING is hard to accomplish here on this physical plane, and when it's done in your mind it's done in your reality, when desire feels as ordinary as eating and breathing, it's a done deal. Anyway, this is what I'm learning more and more, I seem to have had it intellectually, but after this big release it's beginning to sink in, stay tuned.