HOLIDAZED

Feelings don't lie, I tried to have a really magnificent holiday season this year as in the past, I've always anticipated being with family and friends this time of year. This year was not the case due to heavy bouts of overwhelming contrast, and because of this contrast, my attention was more occupied on avoiding the negative focus towards what I DIDN'T want. For some time it felt like forced effort to keep myself focused on what I DID want, and as of now things are smoothing out nicely and just in time I might add for the approaching new year. I want to get EXACTLY what I want, and I've told myself over and over that I don't care how long it takes, so WITH that, I'm going to have to ride out the contrast until my focus [on what I truly want] is crystal clear and the preferred chosen reality unfolds much more smoothly and easily. I am learning that to get EXACTLY what you want you [higher self] will create the circumstances that will bring more contrast, but it will serve you well in getting more and more clarity, and with this contrast, it is simply authentic self checking in and asking you ''are you absolutely sure you want this?'' and this ''checking'' in can happen unexpected and quite frequently through undesired thoughts or circumstances. Add to all of this the ''releasing'' you are experiencing, it's a lot to take on, but if you really want to get EXACTLY what you want, you must get totally clear and the only way this is possible is through the contrast. [what you DON'T want] Because of the timing of all this, Thanksgiving and Christmas was a blur and the contrast has made the holidays come and go that much faster, I simply didn't feel like celebrating this year, and I tried very hard to feel the spirit of it all but to make any effort was just being dishonest with myself, I just wasn't feeling it this year. It is a sad reality that a lot of people can get very lonely and depressed during the holidays, even more so if they already suffer from chronic depression, which I've suffered from myself in the past, so in a way I was reliving that past due to being away from my family for the holidays, enter the contrast. Now that Christmas is gone I'm a little relieved, I don't consider myself a religious person but I still love Christmas and it's quite possible that I may be growing out of it. [does this happen to us all?] I know that when I look back on all of this it will truly be worth all the contrast I've experienced during this 2015 holiday season, it seems to all indicate the arrival of getting exactly what I want and for good reason, the more clear focused I become, the faster and easier the manifestations will be, it's not a matter of WHEN these things manifest, it's a matter of being in perfect alignment with them BECAUSE they have already manifested, HAPPY MANIFESTING AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

BY-PRODUCTS

Happy Holidays everyone, hope all is well and you are creating the life you deserve. My days are literally riddled with physical manifestations, and while this may sound like a really great thing it is, to some degree, yes, we CAN manifest anything we desire and at the early stages of practicing conscious creation we will ''build up'' our manifesting [allowing] skills. It usually starts with smaller things due to our current belief system, but as our beliefs begin to shift and align to bigger things we begin to see evidence that alignment is occurring and the manifestation of those bigger things become imminent. It feels good when you are manifesting more of what you want on a regular basis, you no longer ''get it'' at the intellectual level, you ''know it'' at your very being, and this is when dramatic shifts begin to occur and your trust grows with the process of manifestation thus allowing a more confident and relaxed approach with conscious creation. There comes a time when the ability to manifest physical things [material] becomes almost effortless, so much so, that after some time all those physical manifestations could become boring [ordinary] and at some point you'd become more interested with aligning to a more ''broader'' perspective, what I mean by this is aligning to the broader ''you'' which also aligns you to everything you want. Most material desires such as money, houses, careers, and expensive cars are valid when it comes to desire, but they are merely ''by-products'' of what we truly want, let me indulge you a little, the desire for more money [by-product] the broader perspective [freedom and security] the dream house [by-product] the broader perspective [joy of ownership, security] career [by-product] the broader perspective [passion, doing what you love and enjoy] expensive car [by-product] the broader perspective [reliability, luxury, freedom to go anywhere] it's not the ''things'' you want but the ''feeling'' you want that those things give you instead, you're not after the material thing, you're after the feeling that it brings you. We're not looking to align to the thing, we're looking to align to the feeling, this is because when you are trying to align to the ''thing'' you'll more than likely offer resistance to it, which hinders it's manifestation into your physical reality. Some things will come very easily regarding manifestation/allowing, others may require aligning to a broader perspective and it's usually the much bigger ''game changers'' like big career moves or finding soul mates, even winning a lottery. You must ask yourself why you want what you want, what's the REAL reason you want this thing, the WHY is very critical in the creation process as well as the manifestation process. This is why some things don't manifest too quickly, this is because the buffer of time serves us to gain more clarity through the contrast, and align to what we ''truly'' want, that feeling BEHIND the thing, that REASON we really want it, not just the physical thing itself. There comes a time when we may no longer become excited when it comes to desire, it begins to feel more like an ''ordinary'' and natural process and the funny part is, that's what is required for effortless manifestation, no big deal = no attachment = allowing/manifestation. At the current time I'm enjoying my physical manifestations, but I will admit that I'm feeling less excited about them as they are beginning to feel more normal to me, this is simply progression with conscious creation as the broader you sees everything in this manner, it sees creation and manifestation as an effortless process, and as you align to that part of the ''broader'' you, naturally you'll see creation and manifestation from that same perspective, as being an ordinary and effortless natural part of life. HAPPY MANIFESTING!

THE IRON IS STILL HOT!

Before I get underway on this post I wish to give a shout out to Paris as I'm with you in heart, I love you France and mega-thanks for visiting this blog site! As you know, those of you who frequently stop in for a visit here, I'm 51 going on 52 years young, I don't know about you but being over 50 isn't what it used to be, to me over 50 is nowhere near old and it doesn't have to be. Times have changed, I mean look around, a lot of 50+ people these days are looking and feeling pretty damn good, and for a damn good reason, 50 isn't 50 anymore. There's something about turning 50, but it is also a critical juncture, you could see it from two perspectives, either you decide it's all downhill from here or you can decide to shift into overdrive, of course I've chosen the latter. One thing about me, I'm very resilient, if I get knocked down I'll get right back up, but it wasn't always this way, I've had to go through my fair share of darkness and defeat. Here I am now though, and while my overall attitude has leaned more towards optimism, I'm really confident as well as comfortable, with my newfound age, and every so often I'll engage and imbibe in those things I've always enjoyed in my youth, but it's those very things that keep my youth in check, as well as intact, ever heard the term ''I never want to grow up'' lately? During the past five years I've undergone a huge waking up phase, but it's only been these past seven months of lethargy and slumber that's taken a toll on my motivation, but the inner beast inside me is awakening from that slumber and ready to forge ahead and a new phase is about to be realized. Looking back a few years I've realized that the BIG changes I thought I wanted to make, no longer seem relevant to me anymore, I've discovered that I didn't want to change too much after all, there are some things about me I wouldn't trade for anything, I love who I am, right now, even at 51, there's no need for sudden drastic change, what's the fun in that? The goals and intentions I had five years ago just don't seem important as they were then, maybe they just weren't realistic I don't know, but I'm glad some of them didn't come true because maybe, just maybe, I either wasn't ready for them, or in my heart it really wasn't what I truly wanted. Sometimes amidst the change you want so badly you discover that you really didn't want to change a whole lot after all, you just wanted to be more happy, and in some law of attraction circles it is said you must make all these drastic changes to be successful, become a whole different person than who you already are, really, who made up those rules? Why can't we just be who we are now and let life take care of the rest?, is it really necessary to win a lottery? The answer to anyone's problems aren't unlimited wealth or untold riches, we all know that changes that big can do more harm than good, so why waste energy on wanting these things and worrying whether they happen or not? It's funny that at the beginning of all this conscious creation stuff I THOUGHT that if I had certain things happen in my life my problems would be solved once and for all, five years later I realize that I'd already had everything that I wanted in my physical reality the whole time, I was wanting this and that and ignoring the good stuff that I already had, lesson learned! After 50 now, this is what I've learned, get happy and appreciate what you already have and let life handle the rest, time is too precious especially after a half century, that's still not old!

Now that I'm over 50, I hope it's okay to throw some advice to anyone reaching or over 50, embrace the second half of life, and at the same time embrace your youth, like I said 50 isn't 50 anymore, lose the stress and get happy, have fun and don't be concerned with trying to make all these ''big'' changes, doing so will only cause more stress and age you faster defeating the whole purpose. Listen to music that you grew up with, the music that motivated you, charged you! Throw a party once in awhile to celebrate your newfound age, that young in body but wisdom in the heart age you've discovered, do what you love, not what you think you ''should'' be doing, and last but not least, when opportunity knocks and it will, trust me, strike while the iron is still hot, raising my glass of fine crafted beer... to 50!

DESIRE, CLEAN, REPEAT.

Good morning, the game of life is unfinished business, you will always launch new intentions/desires/preferences as long as you live and breathe, some will be simple, small, and easy as to allow their manifestation, an example would be something in affect as ''I think I'll have a blue berry muffin with my latte today'' and of course your intention is realized when you stop into Starbucks on your morning commute, simple and done. It's a whole different story however, when you decide to enter uncharted waters and launch something big or life changing in your reality, this is especially true when you have baggage or hang-ups [limited beliefs] around your ''life changing'' desire, and until you ''clean up'' your issues [energy] around that life changing desire, it simply cannot be realized in your physical reality. I've said it before, to have what you want you must be an exact match to it, meaning that you must already ''own it'' even though it's nowhere to be seen in your physical reality. What conscious creation really is, is deciding what you want or prefer, and simply forgetting about it [letting go] and getting on with life as source energy itself takes care of the manifestation in it's own timing. It doesn't end there, you are always launching desires and sometimes unaware, you prefer a good parking spot and suddenly one opens up, you have a special craving for chocolate cake and your neighbor shows up with a neighborly gift, you think about a certain person and suddenly they call, these things happen all the time. It's the game changers that we have a hard time manifesting in our reality, we want them so bad we are attached, and attachment = resistance. Nothing you perceive ''big'' can occur in your reality until you clean it up, and even when that something is allowed to manifest it won't be long until you'll want something else, and when something else ''big'' manifests in your life you'll become more confident and you won't choose to play small anymore, but know this, no matter what manifests in your life you will always desire more and you will always have to clean up your energy to some extent around it, of course it does get easier with time. Another thing is trust, once you launch your intentions you must trust life energy to handle ALL the details, to make this much easier to understand life energy is already handling the details of your own life as you read this post, either you are getting what you want or you are getting what you don't want, and whatever you don't want life energy is bringing that to you as well, you don't use life energy at your own convenience, it's ALWAYS in motion and ALWAYS in operation, it just is, so it is imperative that you are always focused on what you DO want. Friends, we'll never get this done so there's no need to try, a means to an end will only create another means to an end, it's better to embrace the journey and not worry about the destination, ride on brothers and sisters!

INTO YOURSELF

I'm a middle aged guy, but believe me as I write these words, I am NOT your ''typical'' middle aged guy, meaning that I'm a long way from settling down. I'm single, I love to party and celebrate, I'm extremely active and in pretty damn good shape, I enjoy loud and very heavy music [no hip hop/pop/country] I'm a self taught chef, and I'm kind of getting good at this writing thing. Now that I've spilled the beans, I'm going to be honest about what I'm not, I'm not fairy's, rainbows, and unicorns, I try to avoid romance because I'm really not the committed/relationship type as I value my personal freedom above everything else, I'm rugged, stubborn, and at times very rebellious. At 51 years old you may be thinking I'm irresponsible or reckless and to some degree I am, but in a more positive way, here's the thing, I love these things about me and I'm embracing myself for these things as well, I'm learning to let go of the judgments and just do what feels good, and even more I'm going to admit that I'm beginning to love myself [did I just say that?]for who I am, imperfections and all! I'm beginning to believe that we shouldn't judge ourselves so much, we're human and when we are against ourselves [dislike ourselves] we are setting ourselves up to be disliked by everyone else. Why is it we get so down on ourselves for being human? Conditioning of course, and at some point in our lives [perhaps childhood] we were told we were a failure, we were told that we wouldn't amount to much, we were told that we had limitations, all bullshit! I used to loathe myself and my very own existence, my self talk would be that of criticism and failure, thus creating a reality of misery and endless suffering via law of attraction. A very honest truth here if I may, when you are wanting something good or better for your life, you are asking ''yourself'' for it, you are ''giving'' yourself permission to not only want something better, but to ''have'' it as well, and when you receive this ''better'' thing, you've actually ''given'' it to yourself but here's the rub, if you don't love or at the very least admire yourself, how are you going to give yourself what you want? This is an issue of deserving here, if you don't love yourself you're going to have a hard time believing you deserve the things you want. This is a missing piece of the manifesting puzzle and it will become crucial when you're wanting to manifest the big ''life changing'' stuff, so if you're wondering why the best life has to offer is constantly eluding you look no further than how you feel about yourself. I myself remain to be a work in progress in the ''just love yourself'' department, but I am beginning to appreciate my personal qualities more, my talents, passions, and traits, good or bad, I'm learning to accept myself for who I am now presently, not ''when'' I become what I want to or who I think I ''should'' be. There is no pressure here, when we're ready to do this [self love thing] it'll happen, but only WHEN we're ready because we are at the driver's seat here, we get to choose when we're ready, no one else can choose for us, until again!

YOU'LL BELIEVE

Happy Holidays! Been a little while since the last post and for good reason, life is happening and boy have I been getting sidetracked! As there really is a reason for this, it sure doesn't make it any easier, things have been a little chaotic around here on a vibrational level [emotional summersaults] and I'll experience moments of anxiety one minute and relief the next [I'll work on feeling the emotions of relief when I'm experiencing anxiety] but it IS the holiday season after all. You see, I'm preparing for another move, I've even gone as far as gathering my personal belongings and boxing them up for transport to another state and I'm not going to lie here, I haven't the slightest idea of how this ''move'' will happen, I mean who wouldn't be experiencing some anxiety am I right? With all of this coinciding with the holidays, it further fuels the anxiety/contrast because I'm preferring to move before the new year so I can see my family for Christmas. It's a tall order I know, but I'll admit that with the extreme contrast lately I've been given no choice but to get crystal clear on my intention and that means ''pure focus'' which brings about a speedy manifestation. It's a bold move I must admit, you could even dub this approach ''manifesting for the bold'' but when contrast gets this hard and heavy there is no choice but to decide or suffer. Where I am now presently, I've reached the end of the rope, I've served my time here, there's nothing left to do but move on, as things have stagnated dramatically. I've made the final decision to move, and because of this decision the contrast has become almost unbearable due to the fact that at some point I'm already living in my new environment and I'm feeling that, but so often I'm reminded of where I am now physically and I don't want to be here anymore, enter that contrast again, so what do I do? The key word here is to focus on ''relief'' because that's exactly what I'll be feeling when I leave this place, not excitement, not fear, just relief with a tiny helping of nervousness, after all I'm moving, so there has to be a realistic perspective to bring about a more reality based manifestation. What happens next is amazing, through all of these cycles of contrast/clarity a belief is formed making me a perfect match to my preferred reality so it can manifest, I now know that the means necessary are already within me, I can, without looking, see the signs that movement is indeed occurring behind the scenes, I know that life is happening FOR me and aiding me towards my intended result, in the nutshell, I fully believe that this move WILL happen! To trust the life stream to get us where we want to go can be challenging, but the truth is that it's always carrying us where we want to go, we're just constantly unaware that it's actually/always operating/happening, so we're always being carried where we DON'T want to go, by default. This is simply how life works, you decide, you allow, it's that simple, what throws the wrench in the perfect machine is the don'ts, the won't, the can't, and the what if's. Ironic is that the wrench that's thrown also helps us decide what actually IS wanted by being aware of what we DON'T want, you see?, life is on OUR side.

GET WHAT YOU TRULY WANT

Good morning from Phoenix Arizona! As you may not know, I've recently let go of researching all things L.O.A. and have fully implemented it into my own personal life, no longer do I turn to other law of attraction blogs or websites, I feel no need for outside coaching nor do I have a desire for mentors to follow, I am officially and happily on my own. Speaking from my own personal point of view, searching for answers from other so-called experts [L.O.A. savvy folks] has only led to confusion and questioning myself over and over. Everyone's experience is different, and while researching all things conscious creation is recommended at the early stages, sooner or later the training wheels must come off, and you'll prefer to implement conscious creation in your OWN life your OWN way, why?, because nobody will get to know you during this process [journey] better than yourself. Please don't believe everything you read about how you're SUPPOSED to create your reality, you CAN create it any way you choose, hell, you may not even believe what I just wrote here, but try to believe me as I write this now, if you're really serious about getting what you want you WILL get it eventually, you'll have no choice in the matter. What no choice means is that your authentic self [bigger you] has already expanded into that version of you, it already HAS what you want, REGARDLESS of what it is, it's already done! You'll need to play small at first when it comes to getting what you want, going big right out the gate will surely hit a wall with your current belief system, you will need to see and experience evidence of your expanded ''new'' beliefs as you work your way up. Think about this though, how many times have you got exactly what you REALLY wanted? You'd be surprised at the answer, even more surprising is that a majority of those times [getting exactly what you wanted] was during the early stages of your childhood. It was when we entered into adulthood that we acquired those limited beliefs that we had to ''work hard'' to get what we wanted, and when we finally got what we wanted, we were too exhausted to enjoy it physically and mentally, it seemed to feel as if it wasn't worth it all AFTER all. Your higher self wants you to have what you want, but there is a difference of what higher self wants and what your physical self wants and yet it's still the same thing, to a degree, allow me to explain...you want a certain ''thing'' say a new car, a dream home, starting your own business, but higher self wants the experience [joy] of getting these things, not the actual material [physical] things, but the experiences of moving towards those things [inspired actions] You are after a feeling here, not that ''thing'' itself, this is very important to understand and internalize because this is what will determine getting what you want attraction wise, not that very thing, but the FEELING it gives you, without even having it yet. I believe that it's perfectly okay to want and experience physical and material things, but material things are just what they are, things, however, they can bring a certain feeling when we have them and if they feel good we can only attract more of those feelings [and things] What about people, what if you wanted to attract a certain somebody into your experience? I'm a single guy and I'm by no means an expert in the field of finding a soul mate or life partner but again, you are after a feeling so you would focus more on the good qualities you'd want this person to have, not so much on how they look, this could also apply to a dream job or having your own business, what qualities do you want?, how does it make you feel now?, before it even happens? Your bigger you, [higher self] has already expanded into your desire, now you must catch up energetically and that means meeting your authentic self halfway, through your emotions, this is accomplished by ''feeling'' the emotions of the desire ''already fulfilled'' then moving on as if it's a done deal! In closing blog number three hundred, to get what you want, shed the old belief and turn over a new leaf, if you truly ''believe'' you can get whatever you want you'll simply get it!

VICTIMS OF EXTERNAL DECAY

There are things that are happening in our world that we just can't control, while enjoying my morning cup of rocket fuel I decided to browse a little on the television, not to catch the news mind you but to watch something from the comedy/retro channel, nothing good was on. As I flicked through the channels looking for something of quality to lighten the morning mood, I bypassed through the major news networks, only briefly however, lo and behold, it's the same old story, be very afraid. It's nice that nowadays I'm not too fazed by all the fear propaganda that the mainstream media puts out there, but at some point it bothers me a little and who isn't bothered? It's natural to get really angry when the senseless violence happens and the innocent are affected, it can be very troubling, but living in fear and worry about these things can do a lot of harm to us mentally and physically, so much so, that our everyday decisions will revolve around that very fear and worry that we're allowing into our being, thus creating more of it into our reality. Anything we worry about or fight against will persist, it IS the law of attraction, so what are we supposed to do when we're hearing about all this trouble happening in the world? Wherever our focus is, our reality isn't far behind, but when we focus long enough on the troubles of the world and feel helpless about our own lives because of those troubles, we are setting ourselves up for the victim mentality at a whole new level. This ''fear consciousness'' spreads like wildfire and it's of no surprise that we're witnessing these terrible events in the present time right now. We can't control everything indeed, but we have total control of our own focus [perspective] and when something on a grand scale happens, we make the mistake of trusting in the [news] media for the answers, that ''why this happened and how it affects me'' mentality, so we'll keep our eyes on the news waiting for them to tell us everything is okay once again. The same can be said about all of this 2016 presidential campaign hype here in America, people are so focused on the problems here in the homeland while looking for a ''savior'' to elect into office who can fix all of their financial woes, when they themselves are the ones who are in control of their reality, through their own dominant focus. I was that person, I was that person that watched the news and figured what's the use?, I was that person that blamed everything bad that was happening to me on external circumstances I couldn't control, and even more, I was that person that bought into the idea that I was at the mercy of the outside world, and I was powerless to change my own life, no longer is this the case of course. I'm not here to save the world, it'll take much more than me, it is the job of each and every individual in our collective consciousness to decide what they want to focus upon, but one thing is for sure, focusing on fear is only going to cause more fear to focus on, thus creating a reality based upon fear, a vicious cycle the world could do without. I've said this before and I'll repeat it once again for the sake of our health and well being, LOSE THE NEWS!

DAYS LIKE THESE

Happy upcoming holidays! yes, that time is rolling around again quickly, setting the stage for the new year, and quite possibly very interesting things to unfold. Here and now however, things are slow and crawling on the front and it's funny how there will be a period of movement [cluster manifestations] and then a quiet period [lethargic] where you seem to be in neutral and just ''coast'' through it all. The latter applies to me these past few weeks, I feel very lethargic on some days and even though I'll recognize the contrast of it all and intend to do something, ANYTHING for that matter, it usually ends up being whatever satisfies me or makes me feel better. But it is short lived and I'm back in lethargic mode, it's usually on the early part of the week, then towards the end of the week I'm more motivated to do stuff. This past weekend I spent some time with myself, had a lot of fun, and stepped out of the box, it was euphoric! But at some point it was so good I managed to set myself up for some heavy contrast and it hit me like a hard comedown. You see, I love freedom and hate responsibility, don't get me wrong, I AM responsible, but when I'm having so much fun and I'm caught up in it all, responsibility goes on the backburner as I'll milk my bliss as long as possible. I haven't grown much in this area, I can be like a careless teenager when it comes to having fun and doing whatever I want, and yes, I can sometimes get a little reckless, but in a more positive manner. I am a rebellious and free spirited person by nature, and probably even more now that I've become a conscious creator, and when I've taken care of responsibilities for quite some time, I'll look to reward myself by having some much needed fun time. This is also the case when I'm lethargic and I can't seem to find motivation so I'll just decide to cut loose, have some pints, and hear my favorite tunes and it helps lift the mood from neutral [blah] to ''now we're talking'' but again there's that slow period that feels like you're waiting for something and yet, you have no idea what it is you're waiting for. Perhaps the reason for this is you could be transitioning to where you want to be, from where you've been, and because you've launched desires that are significant to you, there may be a period when things aren't quite ready to line up yet, so you just try to maintain your sanity and find things to do that feel better. That's really all you can do because the Universe can't move mountains for you if you're standing in front of them, nor can you be open for receiving when you keep looking for the manifestation, I mean this can drive you crazy at times! There will be days when you'll just feel helpless and have no control over anything and feel like giving up on everything, enter apathy and/or lethargy. Strange days indeed, [John Lennon] but know this for sure, you're getting what you desire but the route to it's unfolding is something the mind can't conceive. Yes, when I began all of this over five years ago, nobody told me there'd be days like these, [apathetic and lethargic] and they are strange days indeed, but they WILL pass as I'll return to chop wood and carry water once again!

LOOKING DOWN

It seems everywhere I go people are glued to their smartphones, awareness has merged with technology and I'm beginning to wonder with social media, is it really bringing us together or alienating us from each other. ''Don't bother me I'm eating'' remember that? now it's ''don't bother me, I'm texting'' and how often have you tried to have an intelligent conversation with someone and they'll just nod while they're looking down on their smartphone, it always happens to me! It is for this very reason I don't own a smartphone, nor do I participate in social media and no, I'm not some grumpy old fashioned man that hates technology, I enjoy hearing my favorite music on the laptop and I am a blogger, but something just doesn't feel right about all this smartphone technology. Maybe it could be that smartphones are distracting us from our true selves, we're so caught up in how we are perceived by others, maybe we think that social media will give us a voice [seeking approval] we don't have in our everyday life, in either case, could it be that we can be something we are not, behind social media? Everything has two sides, good and bad, this also applies to smartphones and social media, but it just seems like a distraction to reality and that puts people in a looking down position rather than a looking within position. I was without internet for almost two weeks and those two weeks were phenomenal, everything in this house runs on internet including the television [NETFLIX] and there are four other people in the house, I witnessed some anxiety and even some withdrawals from the others and tempers really flared just after the first few days of being dis-connected from the grid, while I myself took full advantage of the downtime. Here's what I did, the past summer monsoon storms have taken a toll on both the front and back yards, I took the liberty of restoring and landscaping both, readying them for the winter grass and even building a fire pit in the back yard. I've also done some remodel projects in the kitchen and have painted the pool fence which was getting rusty. I worked out more often, went hiking more often, put more attention towards myself and did what makes ME feel good. Then there's the really fun stuff, on Halloween I handed out candy to the trick or treats and afterwards, enjoyed some craft beers and spun my favorite CD'S until late at night. No internet, no problem, and nothing will get you moving better than being off the grid for a few weeks. I understand the importance of the internet but being without it was a blessing, and unlike others that reside here I've discovered that the real fun lies within myself rather than within the internet.

PULL BACK

A lot of times the mind will get addicted to the feelings of euphoria and bliss when you are dominant in your vortex alignment, that wave of physical manifestations that seem to indicate that you are out of the woods and everything will be peachy from here on out. We only wish this was the case, but reality creation isn't about a means to an end, and while few DO achieve ascension to a level of total bliss and well being [constant alignment] for most of us this is a delusion. This is not meant to discourage, life is a journey and we must be congruent with physical reality and how it REALLY operates because our own mind thinks that IT is in control and in reality everything is happening behind the scenes, so when it comes to getting what we want we must understand that our own mind has no capacity to understand how something will manifest. When I began my own journey towards self development my mind was mostly involved in the process, it was always seeking valid answers, looking for proof constantly, resulting in anxiety and confusion and a whole lot of questions with no satisfying answers. As progress happens the mind will tend to want a piece of the action, yes, it wants what it wants and it's never fulfilled so you will be battling your mind all through the process, this is when you will need to pull back occasionally and take a breather and re-charge your batteries. There is no movement or success when you are trying too hard and this indicates too much mind-involvement in the process, so it is paramount to ease off occasionally and point your boat back downstream and only then will the next step in the process be revealed.

DOIN' IT RIGHT

It can seem that when you've made great progress with releasing resistance and you can almost feel a shift in your beliefs only to discover that another layer of limited beliefs will surface and you're right back where you were, three steps forward and two steps back, over time the frustration grows and you're on the verge of giving up altogether with law of attraction and reality creation. Take heart in this, you are ALWAYS moving towards the things you WANT, always, and you are NEVER doing anything wrong, this IS a process and you must go through it to get what you want. It's simple really, the Universe will deliver your desire when you're ready for it and not before, but your resistance to the very thing you want must be identified and dissolved, there is that buffer of time as well that serves to help you make adjustments along the way, and acclimate to your chosen reality. This is a process, and as long as you are launching desires you are doing this right, but take note, as long as you continue to launch desire, you will be releasing your resistance to it as well, this will happen automatically as the Universe delivers on it's promise, you cannot get around this, if you want something bad enough, you will have to dissolve your resistance around it as to ALLOW it's manifestation in the perfect timing, this is where trust in the process will be paramount which brings us to the above article...

MENTAL VIRUS

You could liken your mind to that of computer software that has accumulated some viruses, because of these viruses the computer performs slowly, resulting in delayed downloads and even worse, unprotected from further viruses and malicious attacks. As this continues for too long a period of time, the computer will eventually crash, resulting in the loss of all your personal data, thus, you will have to replace your computer alltogether and start over. There is a metaphysical explanation for how the mind works regarding physical reality, but it can have you questioning everything that happens and this just sets you up for much unwanted anxiety, the computer analogy simplifies this, clear out the viruses [resistance/negative thoughts] first, then your computer will run much faster and more efficient [aligned thoughts] resulting in faster downloads [physical manifestations] and continue to scan/clean your computer [maintain alignment] on a consistent basis, which brings us to the above...

DELAYED GRATIFICATION

Good Monday morning, it's of no surprise that everything we want in our lives is right at our fingertips, fast food, high speed internet, smart phones that make it much faster and easier to manage our money, speed dating for single people who are looking for romance, instant messaging through social media, it's all too convenient, unfortunately though, fast doesn't cut it with creating the life of your dreams with the law of attraction. There are no shortcuts to creating a successful life, there will be a major de-cluttering that will need to take place if you've lived most of your life residing in negative perspective. The Universe doesn't operate in our time frame and it could take some time for this idea to sink into your very being, but rest assured, as long as you are dissolving your resistance you are getting much closer to realizing your dream, which brings us to our next topic above...

DOWNTIME

Greetings everyone, in case you're wondering why I've been M.I.A for almost two weeks I've recently lost my internet connection, so I've had to live unplugged for awhile, but I've just rectified the problem by switching internet providers so I'm back in the ring for another swing! Being without internet for almost a few weeks has had no ill effect on me whatsoever, it was no big deal as I've been able to do other things that were fun and liberating. I realize that even without internet, life still goes on and we are often too ''plugged in'' to notice and do what truly matters in life, ''ENJOYMENT'' I'm entering another phase now and more stuff is coming so stay viewed.

MAKE THE BEST OF IT!

Life has it's moments, we deal with things that can be so overwhelming, our jobs, our family life, our shortfalls. It's very important to remember that you are already blessed, you exist, and I'm sure you can find something to be grateful for! It's the little things that matter the most my friends so PLEASE try to find something in your life that makes you feel good, not only that, do something special for somebody, give your own valuable time because when you make someone happy you are making yourself happy! You are always playing the role in this game of life, you are a cooperating component and when you have a desire, something through someone is making it happen, and you may not even be aware of it. Everything happens for a reason, so trust your inner guidance, because it will always guide you towards the things you want, this IS how your Universe works! It is never possible for you to figure out how your desires will unfold, but KNOW this, you are always getting what you want, however, you must trust the Universe to bring something that will exceed your expectations, always know that it's always done, regardless, I've said this before and I'll repeat it again, the Universe wants you to have what you want more than you want it yourself, ALLOW IT! food for being.

ABUSING THE POWER

Greetings to everyone! Well, it seems the storms have passed here in Arizona, [we've undergone extreme weather stateside these past few weeks] in the guise of hail, high winds, heavy rains, and violent thunder. These storms have passed and so has the ''inner storm'' I've been experiencing during my releasing stage, it's interesting that these things coincided together because during all of this chaos I was literally in the eye of the storm at the vibrational level, but yes, it seems that the storm appears to have passed. That aside, let's delve into a subject that I haven't covered before about getting to a point where you've released a greater part of your resistance, made great shifts with your beliefs, and you're harnessing the law of attraction fully, manifesting ''bigger things'' and massive changes in your life. Once you've reached this level life just opens up for you and yields to you everything you desire, hence, behold the power! I believe leveraging these Universal laws in your favor would be better served in a more humbler approach, not for personal gain in the form of greed or reaching for a status that put's you ''above'' everybody else. This is where the danger lies, look no further than our current world economic system that's fueled by greed, power, and corruption. The ego will never be satisfied, it will always want more because that's the very design of the ego, but it's important to understand that our own ego is not the enemy and it should not be treated as such, it DOES serve a purpose. What CAN be dangerous however, is when the newly empowered ego get's too involved with the conscious creation process, when everything becomes based on it's decisions alone, I'm not referring to the beginner's stage of conscious creation where we ''think'' we know what we want [through the wounded ego] and yet have a ton of resistance to work through and release, I'm referring to reaching that place when you become a powerful deliberate creator and you can manifest anything with ease. There is a line you can cross if the newly empowered ego get's too involved because the ego will never be satisfied, this explains why few are incredibly wealthy and powerful and most are working class or poverty stricken. Where does gratitude fit in to all of this? we know the ego can never be satisfied so obviously there's no room for appreciation, just the endless attainment of the material, higher status, and unlimited power. Desire stems from the ego, at least that's the purpose of it from what I gather, but I'm still mixed on this, everybody has a different take on ego and desire, but I can see where desire comes from and at best it seems to be delusional/wishful thinking at first, that is, until we can align to the desire [from our core] that's first launched from our very own ego. As I mentioned above, our own ego is not the enemy and it shouldn't be treated as such, liken it to your own children who beg and want certain toys for Christmas, or have a fit when you refuse them ice cream before dinner, are they your enemy?, of course not, and neither is your ego. Our ego does serve a purpose or else we wouldn't have it, but the take home here friends, is not to get the newly empowered ego too involved when you've finally harnessed these Universal laws and you have increased your powers with manifesting at ease. There is a certain blissful feeling when the Universal laws are constantly working in your favor, you may feel almost invincible and extremely powerful, you may develop a belief that things will be good from here on, you could even place yourself ''above'' others who know nothing of conscious creation and assume you're better than them because you can manifest everything you want and they can't, and although you've become a more spiritual person, you may form the belief that it makes you ''superior'' to others who you perceive as ignorant and unaware, because they're not at the same level spiritually, as you are. This is the ego involvement with self mastery and it's a recipe for personal disaster! A line must be drawn, sure, the ego will desire and it's natural to want enjoyable experiences, [guilty here lol!] but the line could be crossed when using the Universal laws to satisfy the newly empowered ego for the experience of personal gain/greed [hurting/stepping on others physically] or placing yourself above others [hurting people emotionally] by believing that this knowledge will give you power above everyone or everything else. Be it ever so humble they say, true, and this should also apply to conscious creation, these Universal laws are not about achieving power ''over'' others, they are about achieving ''personal'' power and creating unity, helping out in the grander scheme of things, SHARING THE KNOWLEDGE AND THE WEALTH! until again!

A DIFFERENT STORY

Good morning, changing our reality has no shortcuts, I don't know about you but I'm glad things don't happen too quickly when we want to make big and drastic changes. When we get frustrated with our current reality/circumstances and desperately want something better we must understand that we are just not thinking straight, we are coming from the mindset of lack and neediness, deluded thoughts and ideas come into the fold, hence the mind goes reaching for a ''quick fix'' solution. When this happens we may take actions out of desperation that don't feel good or ''forced'' to avoid a feared outcome, and when an unwanted result occurs we'll go back to telling ourselves that same old story of how difficult and unfair life is. Whatever your life story is, you're the one writing the script and no one else is writing it for you, and whatever your story is now, it will be how things play out in your reality. You've probably heard it before, ''change your story, change your life'' and it sounds pretty simple right? But it will take time for the new story to be ingrained into your belief system, over time that story could be subject to some tweaking and modifications here and there. I've learned this from personal experience, when I made the conscious decision for big changes five years ago I thought that then, at THAT time, I had known what I really wanted and I'll be honest here, to this day none of these things have happened yet, why? Maybe because it's possible that either I really didn't want them at the ''core'' level or, I just wasn't ready to make that big of a leap as far as drastic changes go, or, quite possibly, there may be some awesome experiences I must go through first, to finally get what I wanted. This is what I've mentioned in many of my past postings, our Universe can't deliver something we're really not ready for and should something by chance actually occur, and we're not ready for it, the end results could backfire in our reality. Something wanted or unwanted, again, thank the Universe that there IS a buffer of time so you get the chance to get your story straight! When a person is writing a novel does he/she complete their book in just one sitting? no, of course not, new ideas are constantly coming into the writing process, subjects change, characters change, you may have a set plot but decide to take it in a different direction, you may even extend or change the ending of your book, but in the end You decide what happens or plays out. Yes, love that buffer of time because you can adjust your course and decide with much more clarity, THEN you can begin to tell your story resulting in a much more easy unfolding and making the necessary adjustments as you go. It seems that we all wish that if such and such would just happen, our problems would be solved, but life is all about experiencing, if you want something very badly and you're totally convinced that it will solve all of you're problems, then why wouldn't it manifest? Think about this, what would be better, and really think about it, getting what you want right away or having enjoyable experiences along with getting what you want? remember it's the journey and not the destination that counts here, wouldn't you want this to be fun? A lot of practicing deliberate creators want to tell their stories of ''jumping'' right in to their chosen reality from where they are now, straight to where they want to be, no in between experiences, just A to Z, [guilty here in the past!] so their affirmations are delusional and far from their current reality, nothing happens and I know this from experience! Who reads a good engaging book and skips a few chapters in a hurry to find out how it ends? The Universe does NOT say no, it operates on yes, but it's important to understand that it knows you better than you know yourself, it really does, and it knows that the real fun isn't getting what you want when YOU want it, the REAL fun is the awesome experiences you will have getting what you want. Take this one home my friends, stop telling your story of how hard and unfair life is, and stop telling a delusional story of an instant manifestation that's far out of reach from where you currently are, instead, tell a story about the experiences you want to have while moving towards the things you really want, and KNOW that you'll get exactly what you want, the Universe, I guarantee, will be all in!

RUBBER BAND EFFECT

Greetings to all, I would like to touch a little on the subject of the manifestation process, it is during this very process that everything is happening outside of our awareness [behind the scenes]. We can't possibly come close to seeing how a manifestation unfolds, to try and do so will delay or impede it's arrival, with that one exception however, that once the intention was launched, the Universe WILL find a way to ''sneak'' it into your physical reality through the path of least resistance. For awhile I was enjoying some frequent manifestations but things have slowed to almost a halt, this could be due to the recent bouts of releasing I was experiencing over the past few weeks, sometimes a period of preferred physical manifestations could occur and you'll feel like you are riding a wave of positive momentum only to discover, out of the blue, that something small and quite trivial has set you off and has sent you back into a negative cycle, so what's up with that? We want to believe that with mastering the law of attraction we'll manifest like pro's and the good stuff will keep coming and our lives will be perfect from here on out, but to believe that things will work out this way is very delusional. Any desire we may have has some kind of downside, bear with me before you question how is it possible that there is a downside to wanting something better? First off, the downside of wanting something better is our own resistance to the very thing we want in the first place, we'll need to dissolve it, we'll need to become a match [aligned] to our desire by living in it's vibrational [vicinity] frequency. Once we've managed to align and remain aligned on a consistent basis it may take some more time for our desires to materialize in the physical, this is due to many factors, one of them is the necessary trust in the process which will be paramount for success because there will be days when we will be aware that movement is occurring [vibrational matches] and others where nothing seems to be happening. This has tripped me up several times during the manifestation process, so what's one to do when the sound of crickets are all you're hearing in your physical reality? This can be a difficult phase because we may still be letting go of limiting beliefs and sometimes during this phase there are ''purges'' that can throw us for a vibrational loop making it seem like all hell is cutting loose. I've discovered that when this happens the mind will go into ''panic mode'' and resist the intense negative emotions, even more so because of the positive momentum we've banked and become accustomed to predominantly. When we're feeling good predominantly, our own mind may become addicted to that feel good momentum, and over time rely too much upon it, and when a negative thought/feeling occurs due to some unwanted experience, the negativity feels overwhelming to say the least! This is the creation process and OH the mental discipline that's required to keep going, it's so simple to fall backwards when we're trying to move forward. There is however a secret weapon to win the war on anxiety during the creation process and that secret weapon is RELIEF! Yes, relief, this one emotion will get you through the most difficult times when allowing your desires to manifest, relief will become your best friend and help you sleep much better at night. When resistance pops up there are two things you can do, you can resist the resistance until you fall into a negative loop or you can sooth yourself by finding relief and milking that emotion until you've reached that place of contentment as your resistance dissolves on it's own. Relief is expansion, if you were to try to suppress your resistance by reaching too high [joy or bliss] you'd be forcing the effort and that's too big of a vibrational jump, you can't win that fight, relief is your true ally here. Look at it this way, you feel rotten, how do you want to feel? RELIEVED! You have no money to pay your bills and you're worried sick and highly stressed, by law of attraction how would you feel if somehow, the money needed had surprisingly shown up, and you could finally pay those bills? RELIEVED! You've launched your desire to finally own your dream home because you're tired of throwing away your money renting a run down apartment that lacks space, how will you feel when you close the deal? RELIEVED! While it IS true that you will experience joy and appreciation in these circumstances when they occur, it will only be a matter of time when the responsibilities will kick in and what was extraordinary, like everything else, becomes ordinary, the initial excitement passes and thus we'll move on to wanting something else. This is not meant to rain on the parade of fulfilling a desire, this is physical reality, this is human nature, we will always desire more but over time physical manifestations could become boring [not for me yet!] and we'll seek something of a ''higher'' reason/purpose, realizing that the constant accumulation of material possessions no longer satisfies us. As for your desire, that thing you want really bad, and you feel frustrated and awful because it's not here yet, you would do very well to find relief when the feeling of lack occurs, but once again you'll notice the lack of your desire, you'll once again aim for relief, and around and around you will go noticing the lack, feeling bad, and finding relief, this may happen several times but eventually you will finally reach that space where your dominant feeling is an exact vibrational match to your desire [relief] and it will have no choice but to manifest into your physical reality. It's likened to the rubber band analogy, you stretch the rubber band [resistance] you let go of the rubber band [relax/relief] over and over again you go until the feeling of relief is dominant, this in a nutshell, is the creation process my friends!

NO ONE ANSWERS

You will find that over time, after becoming a truth seeker, that no one else's beliefs or opinions will be relevant to you, with the exception of course, that you will attract those that will resonate with your own truths. In the past I was always asking questions and seeking answers from others, maybe something would be bothering me and I would assume that someone I knew and looked up to would provide me with some comforting answer or advice, hence, I was a follower and not an independent thinker, I let others think for me, a sure sign of weakness. Man have I grown and thank God for that, I wish I could take back those years because following advice from others led me down the wrong path over and over, even worse I was constantly giving away my power. Nobody knows me better than myself now and I walk my own way, of course there are still lingering limited beliefs that will have to dissolve from my conditioning since childhood, but I'm finished with asking for advice and answers from others and I don't care WHO they are, I am my greatest mentor as well as my biggest fan, I seek no approval and I don't consider myself to be above anyone else due to my beliefs or preferences, we are all equal and we're all adults here. I was conditioned in the past to believe what was right or wrong and I was always seeking validation from others instead of seeking it for myself, meaning I was basing everything I perceived in life by what others were telling me without seeking the truth myself. I'm now learning that all answers are within, there is no need nor purpose of looking for them outside of myself because nobody will give me a satisfying answer and really nobody ever has, opinions don't matter. There is still internal dialog [limited beliefs] that I must compete with and overcome as well as dissolve over time, it's a mess in there and I'm just beginning to realize this, but Rome wasn't built in one day as they say. Everything really does come down to choice and only we as individuals can make our own choices, nobody else can make them for us nor should we allow them to, but think about it, who would we rather have backing up our choices, others or our own Universe?

ORDINARY LIFE

Good morning, it's 6:oo am here in a somewhat cooler Phoenix Arizona, so lets get started shall we? I've been undergoing a big releasing stage and things have wound down somewhat these past few days, it seems that I've released some significant resistance this time around and I AM noticing the difference, but where's my bliss? Is my work done? Will I manifest the big stuff now? If these are questions one would be asking themselves then it wouldn't be long before the resistance would resurface and all their progress would be in vain. Releasing resistance and expecting instant results won't go very far, this is when it's best to sort things out and prioritize what's truly wanted as there may be some changes or modifications we'll wish to make regarding our intentions and desires. I've had the whole past summer to reflect and release, to decide what stays and what goes, where I want to ultimately live, how big of changes I want to make etc. It would seem that after five years now I'd have everything figured out, not even close, there may be less resistance to deal with but I still can't see the broader picture here so I'm not worried about trying to figure it all out. So where DO I go from here? well first off, I don't need to see the big picture, that's not my job nor my worry, broader self will manage that, my only job is to make decisions, to gain clarity from the contrast, experience physical life to my choosing, after all I AM the conscious co-creator here. Through all of this however, something else has occurred, desire feels more boring and mundane, yes, I'm occasionally thinking about what I want, but it feels more like I care less and less about desire in general, it seems that I appreciate more of what I already have and this newfound appreciation has only grown even more as I've released yet more resistance. A wise deduction would be that launching desire from a place of ''whatever'' seems to be the key to allowing it's physical manifestation, when we make a ''big deal'' out of a certain goal or ''desire'' we seem to come from a mindset of ''our very lives DEPEND on it'' so we'll get very serious about the whole manifestation process but isn't this supposed to be fun? I will testify that releasing big resistance isn't any fun at all but what about after that? My how we tend to take life so serious! especially in these times, I'll admit that it's challenging to say the least but we almost have to come back to being child-like in our approach with reality creation to be successful co-creators on this so-called physical plane of existence. It's really no big deal here, whatever it is, we may want something really bad, so much so that our very existence depends on it, but it's really quite the opposite actually, and although it may take time to ''sink in'' we'll eventually realize that we exist and we WILL desire and with desire comes expansion. It is recommended to make peace with our desires and not to be at war with them, meaning that we're fighting their manifestation by trying to control the outcomes, forcing things to happen instead of allowing them to happen more naturally. If we are beginning to feel bored about our desires when we think about them guess what?, they're closer to realization than we think because we'll simply get tired of waiting for them to show up and eventually that ''I don't care anymore'' attitude will sink in and this is key here, the Universe cannot be manipulated or fooled, your feelings don't lie, nothing, and I mean NOTHING is hard to accomplish here on this physical plane, and when it's done in your mind it's done in your reality, when desire feels as ordinary as eating and breathing, it's a done deal. Anyway, this is what I'm learning more and more, I seem to have had it intellectually, but after this big release it's beginning to sink in, stay tuned.

BLISS DISMISSED

Good morning from a much cooler Phoenix Arizona, it's beginning to feel a little fall-ish here, FINALLY! [sigh of relief] I've just undergone a huge release this past week and there were a few ''freak outs'' during the ordeal, I mean the anxiety was so intense a was on the verge of panic attacks! I'm a big boy though so I toughed it out as best as I could but despite being strong and stubborn, I was no match to facing up to my fears and limited beliefs. Since I've learned about deliberate creation five years ago I've accumulated some interesting delusions about how law of creation REALLY works and they are really beginning to surface, as I am finally coming to the conclusion that I am barely scratching the surface. When we learn of this idea that we can influence our reality and have what we want we get this crazy notion that there is this magical Universe that can bring things into our experience if we just focus long and hard enough, but there is so much more to it than that. After this stressful releasing I just went through I made the decision that I would just jump into alignment and return to my normal blissful state, I kind of figured that since I had went through such a horrible release the next logical step would be to surf the rainbow and all would once again be well. This worked for a few hours as I was catching the big wave of blissful alignment until a distressing IRS bill came in the mail, ''oh well'' I said, ''I'm still okay'' not long after a surprise return from an unwanted person, now I'm annoyed as the bliss began to slowly dissolve into apathy and eventually not giving a damn at all! Why can't I maintain my bliss? Haven't I gone through enough with this nasty releasing phase? These were questions I asked myself over and over again, after all, I've developed QUITE the ability to go from ''BLAH'' to ''WOO HOO'' in no time, and I can do this easily at will, at will? hmm, I'm beginning to see something here, could it be that I'm maybe trying a LITTLE bit too hard to be blissful all the time? Am I a bliss-addict? Have I developed a dependency on bliss? One thing is for sure, this blissful high has serious side-effects and the comedown is real nasty! Before my knowledge of the law of creation/attraction, my life was pretty simple, and even though I felt like crap a majority of the time, I accepted it and I can safely say not many REALLY bad things happened, they just seemed bad due to my overall negative attitude, other than that I would just take the wrong actions and produce poor and unwanted results. I won't lie, but sometimes I regret learning about all this L.O.A. stuff, this is because it can go from uncomfortable to just downright painful when you're releasing all the ''crap'' that's inside of you but I'm learning something very valuable here, anything worth having or keeping in your life is worth the work you'll be doing, no matter how uncomfortable or intense it may get. Here's another surprising factor, just when you're sure that you've released everything and you're surfing your rainbow of bliss, you may ride that wave for some time, then out of the blue you'll wipe out and it could be a small incident that triggers the wipe out, now you have contrast so with all of this unwanted, you decide what's wanted instead, that's fine and dandy but wait, you have past issues with what is wanted so now you must clean that up too, and once again another layer must be peeled away so you can feel better again, thus continues what seems like an endless cycle of cleaning up your resistance to what you want. You want, you clean, you want, you clean, until finally the end result, but there is no end result, hate to break it to you good people, but we can never get this done. I never realized the scope of the garbage that was inside of me until now, this release in the past week has been the most intense and worse by far, it took everything I had to summon the strength and courage to ride it out without collapsing into despair and giving up on everything. I was at a crossroad on this one, I had to literally fight for everything I had and wanted to have in my life, there were times when I'd have to face myself in the mirror and tell myself ''NO!, THIS IS WHAT I WANT AND THIS IS HOW IT'S GOING TO BE!'' this went on for a whole week, a rollercoaster of fearful thinking while trying to cling onto better feeling thoughts/self talk while facing myself in the mirror. I am very stubborn by nature, when I decide something I WILL not give up or give in, I stand by what I believe in, and I'll face myself in the mirror to remind my bigger self what it is that I REALLY want. My perception now is this, as much as I'd like to just laugh everything off and live my life in a carefree, Marry Poppins type of blissful state, clearing ugly resistance is no laughing matter, and no matter how hard you try, you just can't shake it off and say ''oh well'' and go on your merry way. The light at the end of the tunnel however is this, you get to decide, you get to decide what you want and how you want it, yes, I said how, but the hang up on the how is our resistance and if there were no resistance at all, the how would go according to our own choosing. Life is a constant growth, through the contrast comes desire, with desire requires alignment, and on and on we go, I guess the whole point of this crazy existence, is to continually dissolve resistance, and as long as there is desire, and there always will be, there's no choice but to align to it, which means even more resistance to dissolve and somewhere between all of this we're supposed to be happy or at least try to be. Okay I get it, as frustrating as it all can be, but there is one thing that brings much needed relief to all of this and that's the knowing that ''life doesn't have to happen TO us because it's always happening FOR us.

COSMIC STORM

I've written a few posts ago, about how some deep seated past anger issues, were triggered at the tail end of this last week, which seemed to lie dormant only surfacing to be somewhat resolved, and hopefully dissolved. Yes, this was a difficult issue to endure and it literally drained me physically and emotionally and yet I'm wondering, was this random? I'm sure that some of the readers out there are aware that just a few days ago a cosmic event occurred known as a ''super moon'' and I'm just wondering if it's possible that I wasn't alone during this cosmic turbulence so to speak, and wonder if others have had a strange weekend as well. I'm not a firm believer in the cosmos affecting our lives but I'm beginning to question that belief, I mean is it possible that there is some kind of influence here? I'm not an avid horoscope reader but once in awhile I'll look up my astrological sign and lo and behold, it's dead on, not all the time, but yeah, sometimes I'll read my 'scope and say to myself ''wow! this is happening to me'' Some eyes will roll, but stranger things have happened yet I'm beginning to wonder if astrology really influences our lives. Look no further than Universal intelligence and it's perfect design, even more going back to ancient history [the golden age] where humans were in direct contact with the cosmos which influenced every aspect of their lives. Perhaps the age of the skeptic is passing and the realms of possibility are stepping in, of course in our age we rely too much on technology and we're always looking down for answers instead of up. I believe that sooner rather than later more evidence will show itself, that in these times we'll witness things happening in the cosmos that we never realized before, and as well, how much we are influenced and effected by them. If you've had a lot of emotional turbulence this past week you are not alone, keep your eyes to the sky!

RESOLVE AND DISSOLVE

In the last post I covered the topic of anger and suppressed emotions that will surface to be dealt with so you can march onward to successful creation, but there's more, and I wanted to add to the subject at hand. During the past weekend when unexpected issues surfaced I had no choice but to face them head on and deal with them, I really had to be honest with myself and truly decide what to keep and what to let go of as I have certain attachments I'd have to sort through. It can get tricky with this process because the wounded mind will get involved and try to reason with everything that's happening and search for a solution that suits itself, this is where you must reach into your heart and discover what your TRUE intentions are, but with the involvement of the rational mind it can be a major challenge. We are in control when it comes to what we really want in life, but at the same time we MUST be completely honest with ourselves about what's working and what's not working when it comes to improving our circumstances. This can be the hardest when we're dealing with other people, especially those we care about, because face it, some people will hold you back, we'll cling on to them emotionally or they to us, and it can be emotionally hard to let them go. This applies to everything we want to keep in our reality, I can honestly say that I've downsized significantly when it comes to certain things in my life, a lot of things that interested me just a few years ago are no longer relevant in my life anymore, of course, I've had to sort through those things of question in my life, those things that I wanted to remain in my reality and I'm still doing this now, but I'm gaining more clarity and it seems that the things I'm most passionate about I choose to remain in my current reality. If I could offer any advise to anyone on what to keep or what to let go of it would be to hold on to your truest passions, of course the mind will question and rationalize what is or isn't your true passion so it may try to confuse you about all this, but it is ultimately your decision so try to feel it in the heart and leave your mind out of it. What about people in question? that's a hard one, again, listen to your heart and discover if the person you care deeply about is either supporting you or draining you. If there is something you truly want to keep in your reality but you have resistance around it try to uncover the reason for this, it may be a limiting belief you've held making you feel uncertain that what you want to keep in your reality is right or wrong. Keep in mind that there is no right or wrong here, it's all about how something makes you feel, and if it feels really bad to let go of something you'd rather keep, just clean up your energy around that subject/thing and let go of your negative/limited beliefs around it so that you are a match to it, this way it can remain in your reality without question. I almost bought into the idea that I would have to give up almost everything just to get something that I wanted, but in truth I only had to give up those things that were sapping my energy and most of those things were inside of me, not outside of me, but when I let something go inside of me it sort of dissolved outside of me. Doing this energy work on a consistent basis means sifting through everything and that includes internally and externally, but aside from desiring more out of life we may also desire to keep something in our life because it brings us joy despite what others may think or believe, do not feel guilty because of this! It's funny that this subject isn't covered too much with personal development and when it is, you're bombarded with these ideas that desiring certain things and acquiring material possessions is spiritually wrong, but who decides that?, why would we ever question or judge ourselves when it comes to wanting that beautiful luxury sports car?, [guys!] that beautiful home on the beach?, that dining set you've fallen in love with that you've purchased for your dinner party to impress your closest friends? [ladies!] Why feel guilty for any desire? We exist and therefor we deserve, our Universe does not judge our desires, desire is the human condition and it's a beautiful thing, the world has everything to offer and you can have whatever you want as long as it makes you feel good! What I'm learning is that there are issues of undeserving at play in most of us, we feel guilty for wanting more, even for what we already have, we'll wonder whether we should continue having something and tossing it away out of guilt because we're afraid that it's spiritually wrong or we're terrified of what others think. You desire something for a reason, but to receive that desire you will have to feel the essence of it, because behind every desire is a feeling and that includes those things that you wish to remain in your reality, it's really not that THING, it's what it brings you and that's the only question you should be asking yourself honestly, ''what does this thing bring to me?'' and that includes people as well. Like I mentioned above, this subject isn't covered much out there, we all want to have more but what about what we already have? what should we keep and what should we get rid of? That's entirely up to us, we are not being judged here for the things we have in our lives and whether we have so much or so little doesn't matter, but I'm discovering that what I DO have, I'm GRATEFUL for, and I've tipped the scales of being more grateful for what I ALREADY have, rather than thinking about what I still don't have. So what this post means in a nutshell is don't question anything that makes you happy, whether it's coming or already in your reality, if it truly adds to your happiness just appreciate it, it's that simple, you deserve it and you can keep it!

TRIGGERED

Terrific Tuesday everyone! As seen, a lot of visitors are viewing this blog site and I just want to take the time to appreciate all of you who are stopping by with the highest hopes that you receive some inspiration from these posts. I'm not a perfect man, in fact I'm STILL a work in progress and probably will be for some time, but this [deliberate creation stuff] isn't about being perfect, striving for perfection is just plain delusional thinking, so we must accept ourselves for who we are at any given present moment, with that aside, I had another issue from my past [triggered?] surface just last weekend and it took a lot of mental discipline to overcome it. There are always going to be suppressed emotions hiding in the nooks and crannies of the darkest corners of our minds and until they're dealt with, they'll be a vibrational burden that pisses all over our fairies and rainbows.[lol] In the past I've had extreme anger issues about people and life in general, and in some cases those anger issues came with self hatred and self blame, some pretty messed up stuff and that's an understatement! A few days ago I discovered some of these issues were still lying dormant in the dark corners of my mind and boy did I feel them! It didn't take a whole lot to trigger these hidden emotions which took me by surprise so I know they surfaced for a reason, with this anger came the fear of BEING angry and although I did my best to suppress it there was no way to escape facing it head on, so I just let it overtake me for awhile even going as far to embracing it. You will find that it will take more courage than you could ever fathom to face up to your own biggest fears, becoming a deliberate creator is not for the faint of heart, as you are coming up against yourself and your beliefs, fears, and eventually, your true potential. Some say anger can be a good motivator and this is true to some extent, but when you've had anger issues such as myself that are buried deep and need resolving, you'll have to surrender to them so they can dissolve and should you resist them, you'd be compounding the problem and feeding the negative momentum. I've also realized that in my early days of discovering law of attraction [2010 to around 2013] I was suppressing a lot of negative emotions out of fear of believing that only positive thinking would guarantee success with law of attraction, of course this belief was delusional. Every issue past or present, EVERY one of them, must be dealt with, there is no escaping it, you cannot bypass any issue, it WILL surface and it WILL need to be cleaned up or you cannot move forward, there may be MANY layers of issues to resolve and dissolve. I've learned that while past issues are resolving more clarity is gained and I get that much closer to aligning to my TRUE desires, what this also does is it narrows everything down a little more, meaning that my preferences are changing during the releasing process. You may find that what you THOUGHT you wanted before, you may no longer want now, this is because you'll get more clarity as you resolve issues that have been holding you back or draining you emotionally, it is a time when you discover what to keep or what to let go of, the good news is only you get to decide, no one or nothing outside of you is judging you or calling the shots, so you must be completely honest with yourself. Anger is a natural emotion and it's unavoidable, after all, we're only human, and yes it has shown to be a prime motivator for change when you've had enough, but less is better when it comes to anger because it can be a HUGE drain on our energy.

DELUSION OF GRANDEUR

During my waking up phase [still waking up to some degree] there were some days where I just felt like crawling under a rock and hiding from the world. With increasing awareness comes increasing knowledge, sometimes it's unavoidable when everywhere you turn someone or something is reminding you that all is not well in this world, the mainstream media is the main culprit here. A close friend of mine has been following the republican debates here in the U.S. for well over a month, for the sake of sheer entertainment only, I myself have caught a brief glimpse of this ''wannabe reality TV circus debate'' for the next presidency and felt compelled to write my own take on all things politics and deliberate creation. A circus these debates are indeed, and while I've hung up voting for anybody or anything well over a decade now, it was just recently [a few years ago] that I've decided to take responsibility for my own life and that included thinking for myself. It would seem that after decades of failed policies people would stop voting for politicians who continue to be in the pockets of mass corporations, unfortunately there are those who are delusional and believe voting for the ''right'' person will make the world and theirs, a much better place, they're convinced by all this talk of more jobs being created, better health care policies being implemented, and strong foreign policies that will bring peace instead of war. Why time and time again people buy into all these empty promises mystifies me, but it would appear that a majority of those who vote, do so from a place of fear. It's of no surprise that a majority of voters watch the news regularly, how else would they be aware of the problems in the world?, and when election time rolls around, they would head to the booth and cast their vote, with hopes that the person they chose to vote for, can ''fix'' what's broken, makes you wonder doesn't it? When I chose to take personal responsibility for everything that happens in my own life I discarded ''outside'' ideas and influences that conflicted with my new truths, I discovered that the only person that could ACTUALLY make the world a better place was ME, by being a free thinker and believing that I and I only, am responsible for my own reality by choosing my own beliefs/perceptions, as well as what I am thinking and feeling, and as a result, creating. There is no need to rely on outside influences to fix problems that do not affect me or things that are beyond my own control, I've got better and more important things to do as my happiness isn't dependent upon someone/something else. Making the world a better place must come from one individual at a time, by changing their perception, waking up, and seeing the truth for what it really is, instead of multitudes of people buying into the media's fear and looking for a ''one'' savior, who promises to make all their problems go away, only failing to deliver. There is reality and then there is delusion, but things aren't what they seem, we could have it all backwards, what IS reality, is simply illusion, reality can be manipulated or changed, but delusion is simply wanting to believe something that just isn't a truth. I myself, will steer clear of all this 2016 presidential campaign hoopla, I've got WAY better things to do with my time instead of worrying about the problems in this world and looking for someone else to fix them. It's funny though, the very solution to everything is inside of ALL of us, and since we are connected to ''all that is'' the effort would be a hell of a lot smoother and easier than scrambling to the voting booths and looking for an outside fix, lose the news!

UN-SCHOOLED

Good Wednesday morning, afternoon, evening, wherever you may be, and thank you kindly for stopping by! I am, as I've mentioned before, by no means an expert on the subject of conscious creation, I too, am learning as I go and continue to be a work in progress, but I'll have to admit that the more I move forward, the more I realize that everything I've known before was not serving me at all. With everything that was taught to me, especially in my school years, I can now see why I dropped out of high school. Before I continue I just want to make clear that I am not encouraging anyone reading this article to drop out of school, this is purely from my own personal experience and what knowledge I'VE gained from it. Every thing was fine until junior high school, I loved elementary school because most of the time the class would create and make things, we'd paint, mold clay, do gift exchanges, candy and treats were handed out daily to the class, math and the alphabet were sung, rewards were handed out for best conduct and the most creative student, all sorts of good stuff happening in the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grades. By the 4th grade I had to begin learning about history, more complicated mathematics, and spelling, then by the fifth grade current events, politics, and historical figures past and present, plus even more unimportant history because it was the bicentennial year of 1977, there was a bunch of hype around it at the time. During the 5th grade there were ''assignments'' and homework that took away the fun that used to exist in elementary school, by then my interest began to wane with school. By the 6th grade I hated going to school, and it would be almost three more years of losing interest [skipping school] in all things education, only to finally drop out at the beginning of my ninth year. Looking back, I didn't need to know everything they were teaching me and I have no regret for leaving, everything that school taught me was counter productive to everything I know now, nothing they taught me from 4th grade on has benefited nor resonated with me in any way, all I've learned from the so-called ''education system'' is that you have to attend school every day, then you must finish [graduate] high school, then you must go to college and graduate there, then you must work very hard until retirement, and if you're lucky you can enjoy the rest of your life, how's THAT working out in America today? And what about personal development? Where does that fit into the education system? I can safely say that MY perspective on personal development is a WHOLE lot different than that of the educational system's perspective, shall I illustrate? The education system was created by, you guessed it, the system, and it's all about teaching conformity to those that believe that a proper education is the only route to true success, again, how's that working in these times? Look no further than the student loan debt in this country, the biggest in history, most college graduates are working minimum wage jobs and barely getting by despite working hard all through school and getting good grades. And what about law of attraction? why don't they teach that in school? why wouldn't our education system teach us how to empower ourselves instead of teaching us how to conform to the average ''working class'' system? It was only a matter of time until the education system would ''implode'' and leave millions of students in debt and struggling to find high paying jobs, so do we really need the current education system to be successful in life? Really, we don't! I've said it before and I'll say it again, we have the power within OURSELVES to mold our own reality and create our own dreams, and nothing ''outside'' of ourselves can even come close, it only leads to struggle and hard work when we rely on something that teaches us that we must ''earn'' our dream and no other way is acceptable in society. Times are changing, and this writer has indeed become ''un-schooled'' and I simply cannot credit personal development from any school [educational system] nor it's teachings, my newfound knowledge came much later in my life and the educational system's teachings are nowhere near compatible with those of personal development/deliberate creation. I hope that in some countries, there are good educational systems that are funded properly and benefit those who choose to learn, as well as those who are teaching, that they're passionate about what they do, and they enjoy their work, so everyone could benefit, but here in America, not so much! I'm glad I walked away from the ''education system'' and lived my life in a more ''self taught'' mannerism, I wouldn't be who I am today were it not for this ''learning from my own mistakes'' approach, sure, most would think that I ''messed'' up my life by dropping out of school, but it's quite truly the opposite actually. Think about it this way, how many millionaires and billionaires are high school/college dropouts? look it up and you'd be very surprised!

ANOTHER NEW LOOK

The blog site has a whole new look so stop by and see what's happening, a whole new level of conscious creation is taking place as I'm entering into a successful [lucky] phase with the law of attraction, I look forward to sharing my many successes with hopes that they help to inspire you as well as help you to succeed with your own greatest intentions.

THEM AGAINST THEM

Let's tear right into the subject, as this post is about something many can relate to, toxic people. But is a toxic person truly toxic? how would we define a toxic person? The answer could surprise you because a ''toxic person'' is just a label that is used for someone who is generally negative and tends to bring others down, misery loves company right? Whether it's family or co-workers, none of us are immune from toxic people, but should they really be called toxic? Let's dissect this a little, if a man/woman has taken personal responsibility for their life and wants to make more positive changes in their reality, they'll eventually garner a more positive outlook on their life and reality as a whole, but how would that affect those that they work with, or those who are close to them [friends/family] that generally have a negative outlook on life and reality? This may be why the term ''toxic people'' is so widely used in personal development circles, that is, anyone who feels angry, bitter, or envious of happy/successful people. The more positive changes you make, the more others close to you may resent you, but in a more better case scenario, they could follow your lead, with your own success you've inspired them. Let's get back on course here though, when you begin to make drastic changes in the success department it could have a major effect on those close to you, either they will support you or they'll begin to resent you, often they'll try to protect you from failure by telling you that you need to be realistic, that your desire for success is delusional, they fear that if you succeed, it would shed some light upon them and their failures. Another thing is they're afraid your success would leave them behind, that they could lose a very close friend, so they would enter ''protection mode'' and subconsciously try to sabotage your efforts. Of course they would believe that they mean well, but it's not really you they're protecting but themselves. These issues could intensify with conscious creators who are manifesting success at home or in the workplace, and it can get downright tense with people. The important thing to remember is that no matter how much others resent, try to discourage, or outright lash out at you because of your wanting bigger and better things in life, you can't take it personal because it's not about you, it's about them. For a period, everybody who embarks on the journey of personal development will encounter those that go with the grain of society, your new empowered beliefs will clash with the old limited beliefs of others, including those that are close to you, and that in and of itself can be a challenge. I'm very fortunate that those close to me are supportive of my goals, but I sense deep down that they worry of my changes and fear that I may move on without them, yes, it's possible, to move forward could mean that we may have to leave others behind but we're just doing what's best for ourselves and if we're around others that are holding us back, we have to let go of them no matter how painful it can be. People will remain where they remain as long as they settle for where they are and expect nothing more, but when we believe we deserve more and decide to aim for success and KNOW that we'll achieve it, we can't remain with those that, well, simply choose to remain, remember that like attracts like. I guess it's safe to say that deliberate creators could go through a persecution period of sorts, and with rising success will come the doubters and the naysayers, those that mean well and want to protect you from failure, and those that become jealous and resentful. The important thing is no matter what these people say to you or what actions they take against you, it is best not to take it personal, again, it's not about you, it's about them. Who knows, in some cases you may lead by example, you could inspire those close to you, they could get on board and support your success and follow you along, they might see how well you accomplish things, and look up to you. You've planted your garden of success, but weeds will grow too, and you'll need to get rid of them because they can impede the growth and delay the harvest, so it's paramount to surround yourself with successful like-minded people who can support and even help you achieve your success.

HAPPY HOUR

Monday, here we go again with a new week, so lets get it started! In the early stages of my practice with all things deliberate creation, I took this self mastery stuff way too seriously, and unfortunately, for quite some time I'll add, I just had to nail it down so I could manifest my goals ASAP! I think at some point, usually in the beginning stage, we'll all take the law of attraction a little too serious, after all, this is our life for god's sake and we're very serious about making it better. If there were any written disclaimers with conscious creation, one of them would read ''do not take this stuff seriously'' and it's easy to see why with this one single word, RESISTANCE, and as long as it's present in our energy, we're blocking the goods! Yes, it would seem that the more serious you were about changing your reality the faster it would happen, but with this approach you're swimming against the current of the life stream, and you are literally doing things the hard way. Going WITH the stream is effortless, and so is manifestation as well, as you are allowing a natural force to assist you as well as work in your favor, and since it has everything already figured out, your only job is to enjoy life, yes, I said it, I know, I know, this goes against the grain of conventional thinking, but let me remind you that it's conventional thinking that goes against the life stream, and we've all had it backwards for a long time. This is where beliefs and perceptions must change, and going with the flow becomes a predominant way of life rather than an occasional one, ever noticed how well everything is going when you're in the flow? You may ask ''what am I supposed to do to stay in my flow?'' and my question to you would be this, ''what do you love to do? Just keep doing that'' because doing what you enjoy on a consistent basis is alignment, and the goods come more frequent and faster. It doesn't matter what it is you do, as long as it makes you feel good, a favorite hobby, a walk in the woods, bird watching, blasting your favorite tunes, hanging out with your kids/pets, a night on the town with friends chasing girls and tipping pints, bungee jumping, a roll in the hay with your significant other, I could go on, there's a whole lot of good stuff to do here, so much so, it doesn't leave any time left to do something that sucks! For those who have jobs, compensate, leave work where it belongs, AT WORK! life is too short to live with a job 24/7, put your despised bosses' picture on a dartboard and toss away! find ways to do what you love and get paid for that instead, times are changing! It's time to break the rules of the conventional status quo and it's ideas, it's time to go against the grain of society and think outside of the box, it's time to follow the joy instead of the so-called leaders who get to determine what we're worth! It's time to take inspired actions instead of fear/future based actions! Now that I'm pumped, I'm headed to the nearest local pub to celebrate the victory, anyone want to join me? I'm buying!

PRIVILEGE OF EXISTENCE

All too often we set limits upon ourselves, we've been conditioned to believe there are certain things that we can have, and other things that we can't have. With life energy everything is effortless and this includes co-creation, yet we see something ''big'' and assume that it's out of our scope of possibility, without a second thought we tune back into the ''real world'' and struggle on. I'll remind friends of the simplicity of co-creation and they'll seem to get it intellectually, but very soon after it's back to business as usual and they're off and running, chasing after the mundane and mediocre. I cannot fault anyone for their beliefs nor can I force them to believe what I know now, as this is how I'm certain that I've finally reached a shift in my perception when it comes to how easy it is to create our reality. Yes, it is easy, and we all are doing it effortlessly, of course most of us are doing it in opposition of what we really want, because we are focused predominantly on the things we don't want, and the all obeying Universe conspires to make it so. I could type until my fingers cramp telling you how easy it is to create your desired reality, that the very fact you are in this matrix called physical reality, you deserve everything it has to offer, and you're getting it right now by what you are thinking and believing, good or bad. To reach this truth you must go up against everything you thought you knew, you'll need to make a great shift in your perception and understand that things are occurring behind the scenes instead of what the eyes are seeing and basing reality upon. This cannot happen overnight as it would be far too much of a leap of faith, a buffer of time is required for harmony and alignment towards a desired reality. On yesterday's post I discussed that knowing the basics of reality creation are all you really need to understand and create your desired reality, and while this is true we still need to develop the faith and knowing that the Universal laws are unwavering and precise, they are always in operation, and what we are thinking and believing we are always getting. When you've accepted responsibility for everything you've created and continue to create in your physical reality, you've opened the door to being a deliberate creator, but it goes much further than that, as much as you've focused on what you didn't want, you've gotten exactly what you ''didn't'' want, did you deserve it? from your own perspective of course not, why would you want something you did not prefer? This is how obedient the Universe is, and why it is very crucial to accept responsibility for everything that happens in your reality, and how empowering this can be! Look at those who have everything, and yet more and more comes to them, so much so, that they have more than enough of everything, why is this? Because they know that they deserve more due to the very fact that they exist, it's that simple, they don't allow themselves to be swayed by other's views and opinions let alone the ideas of the status quo, they simply believe that their very existence entitles them to whatever they desire. This entitlement I speak of comes from a very different perspective than how most view entitlement in our society, as entitlement with the status quo is mostly based on lack, believing that hard work is required to be entitled to something, whereas entitlement by simply existing, is a Universal truth, and once knowing and believing in this Universal truth, effortless creation is born. It would seem that from the beginning we strive to learn and understand how everything operates with conscious creation, we'll want to dissect the whole process so that we can understand how it REALLY works, and as mentioned in the last post there will be periods of confusion and frustration as the mind itself will search for answers and proof that the law of attraction is real and valid. Maybe it's required to do so, but after some time we'll learn and understand that we really don't need to understand every last detail of how we create our reality, it's not the mind's job to figure everything out, and finally realizing this, after much confusion and frustration, we'll let go of the specifics and get ''back to basics'' in our approach. In closing, we exist for a reason and the reason is simple yet complicated, but at some point we'll begin to learn and understand that our very existence entitles us to our own birthrights, to live the life we choose and have whatever we want, because we simply exist!