TRIGGERED

Terrific Tuesday everyone! As seen, a lot of visitors are viewing this blog site and I just want to take the time to appreciate all of you who are stopping by with the highest hopes that you receive some inspiration from these posts. I'm not a perfect man, in fact I'm STILL a work in progress and probably will be for some time, but this [deliberate creation stuff] isn't about being perfect, striving for perfection is just plain delusional thinking, so we must accept ourselves for who we are at any given present moment, with that aside, I had another issue from my past [triggered?] surface just last weekend and it took a lot of mental discipline to overcome it. There are always going to be suppressed emotions hiding in the nooks and crannies of the darkest corners of our minds and until they're dealt with, they'll be a vibrational burden that pisses all over our fairies and rainbows.[lol] In the past I've had extreme anger issues about people and life in general, and in some cases those anger issues came with self hatred and self blame, some pretty messed up stuff and that's an understatement! A few days ago I discovered some of these issues were still lying dormant in the dark corners of my mind and boy did I feel them! It didn't take a whole lot to trigger these hidden emotions which took me by surprise so I know they surfaced for a reason, with this anger came the fear of BEING angry and although I did my best to suppress it there was no way to escape facing it head on, so I just let it overtake me for awhile even going as far to embracing it. You will find that it will take more courage than you could ever fathom to face up to your own biggest fears, becoming a deliberate creator is not for the faint of heart, as you are coming up against yourself and your beliefs, fears, and eventually, your true potential. Some say anger can be a good motivator and this is true to some extent, but when you've had anger issues such as myself that are buried deep and need resolving, you'll have to surrender to them so they can dissolve and should you resist them, you'd be compounding the problem and feeding the negative momentum. I've also realized that in my early days of discovering law of attraction [2010 to around 2013] I was suppressing a lot of negative emotions out of fear of believing that only positive thinking would guarantee success with law of attraction, of course this belief was delusional. Every issue past or present, EVERY one of them, must be dealt with, there is no escaping it, you cannot bypass any issue, it WILL surface and it WILL need to be cleaned up or you cannot move forward, there may be MANY layers of issues to resolve and dissolve. I've learned that while past issues are resolving more clarity is gained and I get that much closer to aligning to my TRUE desires, what this also does is it narrows everything down a little more, meaning that my preferences are changing during the releasing process. You may find that what you THOUGHT you wanted before, you may no longer want now, this is because you'll get more clarity as you resolve issues that have been holding you back or draining you emotionally, it is a time when you discover what to keep or what to let go of, the good news is only you get to decide, no one or nothing outside of you is judging you or calling the shots, so you must be completely honest with yourself. Anger is a natural emotion and it's unavoidable, after all, we're only human, and yes it has shown to be a prime motivator for change when you've had enough, but less is better when it comes to anger because it can be a HUGE drain on our energy.