DAYS LIKE THESE

Happy upcoming holidays! yes, that time is rolling around again quickly, setting the stage for the new year, and quite possibly very interesting things to unfold. Here and now however, things are slow and crawling on the front and it's funny how there will be a period of movement [cluster manifestations] and then a quiet period [lethargic] where you seem to be in neutral and just ''coast'' through it all. The latter applies to me these past few weeks, I feel very lethargic on some days and even though I'll recognize the contrast of it all and intend to do something, ANYTHING for that matter, it usually ends up being whatever satisfies me or makes me feel better. But it is short lived and I'm back in lethargic mode, it's usually on the early part of the week, then towards the end of the week I'm more motivated to do stuff. This past weekend I spent some time with myself, had a lot of fun, and stepped out of the box, it was euphoric! But at some point it was so good I managed to set myself up for some heavy contrast and it hit me like a hard comedown. You see, I love freedom and hate responsibility, don't get me wrong, I AM responsible, but when I'm having so much fun and I'm caught up in it all, responsibility goes on the backburner as I'll milk my bliss as long as possible. I haven't grown much in this area, I can be like a careless teenager when it comes to having fun and doing whatever I want, and yes, I can sometimes get a little reckless, but in a more positive manner. I am a rebellious and free spirited person by nature, and probably even more now that I've become a conscious creator, and when I've taken care of responsibilities for quite some time, I'll look to reward myself by having some much needed fun time. This is also the case when I'm lethargic and I can't seem to find motivation so I'll just decide to cut loose, have some pints, and hear my favorite tunes and it helps lift the mood from neutral [blah] to ''now we're talking'' but again there's that slow period that feels like you're waiting for something and yet, you have no idea what it is you're waiting for. Perhaps the reason for this is you could be transitioning to where you want to be, from where you've been, and because you've launched desires that are significant to you, there may be a period when things aren't quite ready to line up yet, so you just try to maintain your sanity and find things to do that feel better. That's really all you can do because the Universe can't move mountains for you if you're standing in front of them, nor can you be open for receiving when you keep looking for the manifestation, I mean this can drive you crazy at times! There will be days when you'll just feel helpless and have no control over anything and feel like giving up on everything, enter apathy and/or lethargy. Strange days indeed, [John Lennon] but know this for sure, you're getting what you desire but the route to it's unfolding is something the mind can't conceive. Yes, when I began all of this over five years ago, nobody told me there'd be days like these, [apathetic and lethargic] and they are strange days indeed, but they WILL pass as I'll return to chop wood and carry water once again!