THE CAPTAIN OF MY SHIP

If you've been following this blog site since it's inception almost four years ago, you'll find that I've made some great strides in my transformation, what I've written one, two, or three years ago may not even be relevant to where I am now at this stage, the whole purpose of putting together this blog site, was to document the trials and errors, the setbacks and breakthroughs, and the practices and teachings, of my personal journey to becoming a deliberate creator. During these past few years there were several periods where I wanted to give up on all of this conscious creation stuff, had I followed through however, this blog site would no longer exist, so what kept me going? I even thought about making money from my blogging several times, but this isn't about money, it didn't cost ME anything to learn conscious creation and had I decided to make blogging a ''job'' it just wouldn't be that interesting to me anymore nor would it benefit anyone else for that matter. Writing these posts are an outlet for me, I could easily write about anything that's right or wrong going on in this world, [there's already too much of that!] but it just so happens that I'm going through a transformative period right now, so it feels more natural for me to write about it, and, in the process, share the knowledge and inspire others freely, I like to think of this blog site as my greater contribution to humanity. As of now I have no role models or mentors that I look up to, I have no need for them, instead, I've become my own mentor and role model, if anyone was to ask me who I looked up to, or who inspired me the most, I would say myself, I am proud of my accomplishments thus far, and even though I'm not where I want to be physically and materially [that's all coming to fruition behind the scenes] on the inside, I'm where I need to be at this time. I am a stubborn man by nature, I've written a post a few days ago about core values and I might've left out this one core value, but I take no advice from others that doesn't resonate with me nor do I see things from others perspectives or viewpoints, and I try not to force mine on anyone either, especially on this blog site, it is meant to inspire, not preach, it is always up to the individual to decide what resonates with them the most, if not, no problem. I like to view myself as a very unique person, I am not the typical mainstream deliberate creator, I don't follow anybody else's rules or philosophies about how you're supposed to create your reality and what is right or wrong, moral or immoral, I know myself better than anyone. I am rebellious by nature, it's just that now I've leveraged it in my favor when it comes to authority issues, I simply choose to do what empowers me, or makes me happy, despite what the status quo is saying or doing. In some mainstream law of attraction circles it is said that there are limits to what we can manifest, or that certain desires are ''wrong'' or ''unrealistic'' or the desire for ''material'' possessions are ego based and go against spiritual principles, they'll tell you that you should let go of these things, but this goes against human nature to me. It is my belief that we can have ANYTHING we desire, there are no judgments towards our personal desires, the very fact that we exist, and the very fact that we can imagine a desire, means it can surely come into our reality. Another disagreement I have is getting rid of certain material things to make room for the better things, you are not required to get rid of anything material so you can get what you want, I still have things that I've owned for well over 18 years that I enjoy from time to time, mostly my music collection, [which others don't find very appealing] and for a time I was questioning the very things I enjoyed, and whether I should get rid of them, because I almost bought into the belief that you had to let go of almost everything to get something. You only let go of things/people that you don't want, or what makes you feel bad/drains your energy, it may be people or things, but in my case I've decided to keep certain things in my life that give me enjoyment, and let go of those that don't, it's strictly up to me to decide, and if I felt guilty about something which made me feel good, and others disagreed with, I would clean up my energy around it so it could stay in my reality, I've learned to not worry about what other people think, I create my own reality, there is no right or wrong, just what makes me feel good. We are the captains of our vessel, along the path to deliberate creation some issues will surface, we'll have to decide what will stay or go, in my case I've had to let go of mostly inside issues, negative thinking and limitation, and as far as outer things [material possessions] I've scaled back on the things I don't use much anymore, and I've kept the things I do use and enjoy, and if anyone of you are questioning whether it's wrong to want material things, just remember that material things are just the by-products of what we really want,[happiness] but I don't see anything wrong with having material things, it's our nature to want nice things for ourselves and even better is when they are a part of our natural self expression. [mine being music, writing, cooking, and weightlifting] The line is drawn however if we acquire material possessions for status or identity, over indulgence,[impulse buying/reckless spending] or to put ourselves above others by buying unnecessary stuff just for the sake of buying it, to impress people or gain their approval. I believe in keeping it simple, I don't need yachts, big mansions, financial advisors, and butlers to do my work for me, I love getting my own hands dirty! I may speak for myself here, but I've had to make some modifications in the past few years, but I stand by my intentions, beliefs, and preferences, material or not, and along the way I've discovered that I don't want/need as much as I initially thought, and never in my life have I appreciated what I already have more than ever, nothing should be taken for granted because we only have one shot at this lifetime cruise, and we're the captains of our ship!