Suppress no more

Good Sunday morning, I've written in past posts how important positive thinking and feeling good is in regard to reality creation, during my practice I've had a lot of suppressed emotions to release, and a great deal of them were brought to surface and released. As painful as this ''releasing'' was I would continue afterwards to avoid feeling negative and suppress those feelings as well, cycling into more suppressed and built up emotions that once again, had to surface and be painfully released. When I began to have more control over my thinking and emotions, I felt that I'd have to avoid feeling bad at all cost or I'd backslide in my progress and momentum, I was in fear of having ANY negative emotions. Hardly being aware of it, I was suppressing every little tinge of not so desirable emotions, only allowing them to build up and once again be released in a painful manner. When we feel good most of the time we begin to think we ''have'' to feel good all of the time, so any thing that feels bad or uneasy we avoid or suppress, but what I've learned is that this can be unhealthy, and since we are an emotional species, we need to feel and embrace both the good and bad emotions. The only way I've been able to release those intense negative emotions was to feel them at their deepest level and allow them to pass on their own, not resisting them or suppressing them, emotional healing can be very uneasy at times, but as painful as it can be, it must be felt deeply to be released. When something doesn't feel good I'll just let it visit, instead of fighting or avoiding the uneasy feeling I'll just move ever so gently into a better feeling place and the unease just passes because I'm not focused on it, I'm allowing it to pass on it's own, not giving it any more energy to persist or create more like-energy. We think that as we have a newfound dominant focus on the positive, we feel that we must avoid anything less desirable emotionally, but if we fight or suppress negative feelings we allow them to build up inside, and when the emotional volcano erupts, it becomes much more unpleasant to say the least. As self mastery is practiced, there will be past traumas and limited beliefs, as well as deep ingrained negative emotions to be released, and although unpleasant as they are, they will pass on, the important thing to remember is that new undesirable circumstances can occur in life, so we must not repeat the past and dwell on them, instead we allow them to visit and reach for the better feeling, contrast 101! My past mistake was ''trying'' to force myself to feel good all of the time, ignoring any thing that didn't feel good, only setting myself up to hit another wall emotionally, creating a mind-body chemical imbalance. Self mastery will happen, a place will be reached where negative emotions have little or no power, you have trained your mind to move immediately towards a better feeling thought, giving no way to resistance, mission accomplished!