A REDISCOVERY

I've mentioned before in posts that during the process of becoming a deliberate creator, original desires are subject to modification or change, I've mentioned that what is wanted now may be different than what will be wanted in say, a year from now, and I've mentioned that the buffer of time serves us as to get more clear on what it is we TRULY want. I remember five years ago wanting all these BIG changes to happen, I approached conscious creation from a very delusional perspective and I can honestly say I'm SO glad that these big changes did not occur, I just wasn't ready to become someone I clearly was not. This self imposed lesson I've gained was simple, to be true to myself and rediscover who I really am and who I am comfortable being, what I am passionate about, and to stop trying to force upon myself all these big changes. We are the deciders, we must realize that our subconscious minds are not ready to change as fast as we'd like, a more gradual process is recommended and slow and steady wins the race. I've gotten so caught up in wanting these so-called big changes and making them happen I'd almost forgotten what really makes me tick, my passion for the things I have and enjoy that are already in my life now, my good health, family and friends, and my gifts and talents that I possess now, not the gifts and talents I think I ''should'' possess. I'll admit that I didn't see this coming, but I am so grateful it's working out this way, and I'm beginning to discover that maybe I don't need to make all these big changes to become better, I already am! I've got the bigger me to thank for this [I call him Big-D] because he knows me better than I know myself, he knows what I truly want from the heart as my trust in Big-D is growing, I simply just believe in myself! There are those who practice reality creation and make great leaps of change, some will become successful and reprogram their minds and even completely change their identity, they'll successfully become the change/person they want to be, leaving who they were, in the past, completely behind. I thought about being a completely different person than who I am now, but I like who I am now, this does not mean I'll stop expanding or improving, it just means I'm more comfortable with the gradual process of growth and in no hurry to change too fast or too drastically, I'll admit that I've got one foot in the past and one foot in the present so I'm embracing who I am now rather than who I ''think'' I should be. It's all about personal choice and reality creation is not a ''one size fits all'' way of thinking or being, we are all different in our approach and our preferences are tailored to us only and not to anyone else, we decide and no one can do that for us no matter how ''good'' they are with manifesting and conscious creation, we must reach inward and ''find'' ourselves as well as find our own way. Who knows, maybe I need to rediscover myself so I can find the true clarity I'll need to move forward or, I just didn't want these big leaps of change I thought I'd wanted from the beginning, time will tell but one thing is for sure, I'm in no hurry and neither is Big-D, there's too much good stuff in my life right now so to just toss it all out and become someone I'm not doesn't feel right to me at this time. We make our own rules, we have options in life, some of us will become a whole new person with a whole new life with reality creation, and others like myself will rediscover themselves and find that drastic changes aren't necessary when we are happy with who we are now, in no hurry to get it all done, we won't anyway.