MIDDLE AGED TEENAGER

Wow, post number 85 and just scratching the surface?, yes indeed, and as I continue my growth in knowledge and awareness, I've refused to let go of some of my ''youthful'' traits. While this writer believes in the importance of growth in this journey towards excellence and achievements, I've kept some of the traits that define who I am, and keeping them seems to allow a degree of balance in my life that allows the fun and adolescent side of me to burst out in a good way, to keep me in my youth so to speak. I have come to believe that spiritual growth does'nt mean we have to give up everything to achieve it, we just have to find balance in all things, for example, I love social gatherings, barbeques, craft beer, parties, celebrations, the heaviest music on the planet, I also love nature, quiet time, excercise, engaging in my passion [this], cooking, teaching and helping others. There are two sides to my personal coin, fun and adventure, and personal development. I have found the only thing I had to give up was my self destructive thinking, and once that was changed to more empowering ways of thinking, all of the things I still enjoy have been greatly enhanced,it's as if I'm re-experiencing them all over again, but in a way that was meant to be. I struggled with this for awhile, I kept worrying that I'd have to let some things go, those things I still enjoy, conventional thinking was getting the best of me, and it caused some resistance on my path, I learned that the only thing I needed to let go of was this way of thinking, I almost fell into the trap that to get anything, you've got to give up almost everything, but what about the things you love and enjoy? who we are is who we are, we are physical beings in a physical and material world, we can do nothing wrong, we are here to learn, grow and experience. Some believe that having alot of material posessions is wrong, or engaging in fun and pleasurable activities is counter productive to spiritual growth, if that's what they believe, that's okay, there is no right or wrong here, personally, I believe we can find balance in these things and enjoy the best of both worlds. Since I've began this journey three years ago, I've been doing things this way and they have not hindered my growth in any way, as a matter of fact I'm enjoying these things even more because they are'nt taken for granted anymore, when it's time to roll out the barrels of fun, I do it with gratitude, that I can still enjoy these things, of course in moderation and balance! Who says you have to grow up? ''OH GROW UP!'' I never liked hearing that and I still dont! I am blessed with youth, and I've done some damage to this body over the years, but you could never tell, my youth has bounced back like never before, I've achieved the perfect balance to be the person I want to be and maintain my youth at the same time, I've turned back the clock and aging, to me, is a graceful, fulfilling experience of having fun and growing up all over again, this is truly living! I'm keepin' it real, no trends, no running with the packs, just living life on MY terms, free and easy, following the bliss while still enjoying those things that go against the grains of conventional thinking of a conditioned society. Yes, I walk my own path and we all are free to walk our own paths, I've just chosen to let things unfold in their own natural way, while having fun along the way, and I'm pretty sure that I'm getting a thumbs up from source energy, which is bringing even more circumstances to keep the path fun, youthful and alive! More to come!