TERRORS IN THE NIGHT

Living consciously [creating your desired reality] can be tricky at times, once we become more aware that we are constantly creating our reality, we'll try our hardest not to think the thoughts that are misaligned with what we want. Because we can be afraid that we'll attract something unwanted by focusing on negative thinking, we'll try to block or suppress any unwanted emotions, fearing that those very unwanted emotions will hinder our ability to align to our greatest intentions, but there is a reason those uncomfortable emotions surface, and it's possible that there is some releasing happening here. In these past few weeks I've awoken a few times in the middle of the night with extreme feelings of anxiety, almost at the beginning stage of an oncoming panic attack, thankfully, I've learned to ''pivot'' my focus on something much more pleasant, giving my attention to something that brings the feeling of relief which allows me to re-align to what's actually wanted instead. I'm wondering though if I'm releasing residual negative energies that are no longer in alignment to what I want by avoiding them during the day in my waking hours, only to sneak up and surface in the middle of the night. I don't like this type of anxiety, it feels very ugly and all I want to do is shift my focus so I don't have to sit with it, but I'm wondering if it would be easier to let the feeling play out because maybe it needs to be released. Sometime in my life something happened that brought about this feeling of intense anxiety but I can't quite pinpoint it, it's likened to a person who undergoes hypnotherapy that must re-live at the emotional level a past negative trauma/event so they can move on to a more better life, but more in the case of desire/intention and blocked energies that could hinder what's wanted, which may be self imposed by our very selves. I wrote a post a few years ago about what is known as the witching hours of the night, and since becoming a deliberate creator, [living in a more positive conscious awareness] waking up in the middle of the night has become routine for me. In these modern times, a majority of people lie awake worrying about their personal problems in life, things like money, relationships, jobs and marriages, even more troubling worries like unpaid bills and huge mortgages/foreclosures, even to the point of night terrors or panic attacks! I used to do this but on a much more intense scale, I used to lie awake in the middle of the night worrying about everything from money to Armageddon, and it was at night when these fears were their strongest so you can only imaging what my next day was like on the attraction level, a living nightmare! Whatever this is it runs deep and I'm hopefully releasing it, but again because I'm always conscious of my thoughts during my waking hours, maybe it's kind of hard for the releasing to occur because I'm vigilantly focusing on better feeling thoughts, but in the middle of the night asleep while the brain is still conscious, those suppressed unwanted energies seem to awaken me in the form of extreme anxiety, and I'll have to soothe myself as soon as possible by focusing on things that bring me relief so that I can peacefully doze back off. It would be easy to be dragged into the mind's pull and assume something is very wrong and all kinds of fearful scenarios could begin to play out in one's imagination, but to buy into those scenarios that aren't real in the first place could be dangerous and habit forming, even when I'm feeling these intense unwanted emotions, as brief as they are, my focus is still on what's preferred despite how uncomforting they can be, to focus on something undesired [forming a mental picture] could invite it into your reality, it's basically a negative visualization exercise that's working against you, please don't go there! Feeling bad will only attract more of feeling bad to some extent, but adding a mental picture to those feelings can create an unwanted reality, that is why despite feeling very bad it may be best to at least have the mental image of what's preferred so you can shift your emotions towards a better feeling place, especially at night! It seems to me while we sometimes lie awake at night our thoughts are at their most powerful, we're just lying there undistracted and in the quietness, it's actually the best time to focus on what's wanted, not on what's unwanted while we're drifting off to sleep, turning our thoughts over to our subconscious. The problem with most is where their dominant focus is during the day [fearful thoughts] in which they are creating their realties by default, but at night when they lie awake having trouble sleeping because of their worries is only creating more circumstances to worry about the very next day, living their very lives in a perpetual negative loop. What could possibly be happening to me could be due to my past, what I used to think about and feel when I would lie awake every night for years worrying about everything, maybe I'm releasing those built up energies now, at least I hope so, especially if it means getting everything I want, it'll be well worth the temporary discomfort.