Full circle

Good morning to all of you and thank you for popping in for a view, it's back to the drawing board, well, sort of, I've been practicing reality creation for well over four years now and have had many successes, but there have also been lessons, and as of a few days ago one of the hardest I've experienced, since I began practicing reality creation four plus years ago. A few months ago an opportunity fell into my lap, and it was actually something I'd been wanting to do for quite some time, so I took action and became excited about the opportunity and jumped in head first [from my ego I presume] and ran with it, it was going really well and it looked like it would lead to bigger and better things. Well into the first month I was well received and I was giving myself praise for the efforts I'd put into helping others, and the experience felt really positive so I was walking on clouds for days. Then just three days ago the whole thing backfired, and I had to withdraw from the project completely, it was gut-wrenching to let it go, but I knew that there was no other way, a very painful lesson that I'm still reeling from. So what did I do wrong? well, the picture is becoming much clearer now, and I'm realizing that my approach was from the wrong mindset, I let my ego take control, and over compensated trying to control the outcome, and deep down I knew this, but on an intellectual level I told myself ''yeah, I've got this'' and the overconfidence took over. Out of 5,000 members it only took one, to put me in my place and set me straight, and even though I am still displeased with this member, I may be thanking him in the end. Digging a little deeper I've discovered I wasn't ready for this opportunity, and even though it felt so good and so right, I was too cocky and over confident in my approach, and those are big no no's when an opportunity falls into your lap. As painful as this was, I've no choice but to get back on my horse and keep riding, and even though I've ALLOWED many good things to happen in my life using reality creation, including this opportunity, I still tried to control the outcome, almost without even being aware of it. When we launch desires through contrast, big or small, they are created in the field of the potential, meaning that the wheels are in motion for them to come into the physical[manifestation]and in between there are mini-manifestations, we always create from contrast, by being aware of what we don't want, and focusing on what we want instead. With this opportunity I was sending mixed signals, and although it felt great, there were small concerns in between that eventually manifested into unwanted circumstances, and from there it blew up and I had to bail out. Now I've taken a big step back, re-assessing and re-calculating my next move, and what I've discovered is that there is no next move, no, instead I've decided to let go of the wheel, I really had thought that I'd learned to let go of control, but only intellectually I'm afraid, and once this opportunity came, it took failure to learn this hard lesson. Failure is a part of growth, without failure we cannot succeed, but we also must keep going, because perseverance wins in this game of life. It almost seems like I'm right back where I started, but it only ''seems'' that way, but giving up for me is not an option, pressing on! Until again.