BLISS DISMISSED

Good morning from a much cooler Phoenix Arizona, it's beginning to feel a little fall-ish here, FINALLY! [sigh of relief] I've just undergone a huge release this past week and there were a few ''freak outs'' during the ordeal, I mean the anxiety was so intense a was on the verge of panic attacks! I'm a big boy though so I toughed it out as best as I could but despite being strong and stubborn, I was no match to facing up to my fears and limited beliefs. Since I've learned about deliberate creation five years ago I've accumulated some interesting delusions about how law of creation REALLY works and they are really beginning to surface, as I am finally coming to the conclusion that I am barely scratching the surface. When we learn of this idea that we can influence our reality and have what we want we get this crazy notion that there is this magical Universe that can bring things into our experience if we just focus long and hard enough, but there is so much more to it than that. After this stressful releasing I just went through I made the decision that I would just jump into alignment and return to my normal blissful state, I kind of figured that since I had went through such a horrible release the next logical step would be to surf the rainbow and all would once again be well. This worked for a few hours as I was catching the big wave of blissful alignment until a distressing IRS bill came in the mail, ''oh well'' I said, ''I'm still okay'' not long after a surprise return from an unwanted person, now I'm annoyed as the bliss began to slowly dissolve into apathy and eventually not giving a damn at all! Why can't I maintain my bliss? Haven't I gone through enough with this nasty releasing phase? These were questions I asked myself over and over again, after all, I've developed QUITE the ability to go from ''BLAH'' to ''WOO HOO'' in no time, and I can do this easily at will, at will? hmm, I'm beginning to see something here, could it be that I'm maybe trying a LITTLE bit too hard to be blissful all the time? Am I a bliss-addict? Have I developed a dependency on bliss? One thing is for sure, this blissful high has serious side-effects and the comedown is real nasty! Before my knowledge of the law of creation/attraction, my life was pretty simple, and even though I felt like crap a majority of the time, I accepted it and I can safely say not many REALLY bad things happened, they just seemed bad due to my overall negative attitude, other than that I would just take the wrong actions and produce poor and unwanted results. I won't lie, but sometimes I regret learning about all this L.O.A. stuff, this is because it can go from uncomfortable to just downright painful when you're releasing all the ''crap'' that's inside of you but I'm learning something very valuable here, anything worth having or keeping in your life is worth the work you'll be doing, no matter how uncomfortable or intense it may get. Here's another surprising factor, just when you're sure that you've released everything and you're surfing your rainbow of bliss, you may ride that wave for some time, then out of the blue you'll wipe out and it could be a small incident that triggers the wipe out, now you have contrast so with all of this unwanted, you decide what's wanted instead, that's fine and dandy but wait, you have past issues with what is wanted so now you must clean that up too, and once again another layer must be peeled away so you can feel better again, thus continues what seems like an endless cycle of cleaning up your resistance to what you want. You want, you clean, you want, you clean, until finally the end result, but there is no end result, hate to break it to you good people, but we can never get this done. I never realized the scope of the garbage that was inside of me until now, this release in the past week has been the most intense and worse by far, it took everything I had to summon the strength and courage to ride it out without collapsing into despair and giving up on everything. I was at a crossroad on this one, I had to literally fight for everything I had and wanted to have in my life, there were times when I'd have to face myself in the mirror and tell myself ''NO!, THIS IS WHAT I WANT AND THIS IS HOW IT'S GOING TO BE!'' this went on for a whole week, a rollercoaster of fearful thinking while trying to cling onto better feeling thoughts/self talk while facing myself in the mirror. I am very stubborn by nature, when I decide something I WILL not give up or give in, I stand by what I believe in, and I'll face myself in the mirror to remind my bigger self what it is that I REALLY want. My perception now is this, as much as I'd like to just laugh everything off and live my life in a carefree, Marry Poppins type of blissful state, clearing ugly resistance is no laughing matter, and no matter how hard you try, you just can't shake it off and say ''oh well'' and go on your merry way. The light at the end of the tunnel however is this, you get to decide, you get to decide what you want and how you want it, yes, I said how, but the hang up on the how is our resistance and if there were no resistance at all, the how would go according to our own choosing. Life is a constant growth, through the contrast comes desire, with desire requires alignment, and on and on we go, I guess the whole point of this crazy existence, is to continually dissolve resistance, and as long as there is desire, and there always will be, there's no choice but to align to it, which means even more resistance to dissolve and somewhere between all of this we're supposed to be happy or at least try to be. Okay I get it, as frustrating as it all can be, but there is one thing that brings much needed relief to all of this and that's the knowing that ''life doesn't have to happen TO us because it's always happening FOR us.

COSMIC STORM

I've written a few posts ago, about how some deep seated past anger issues, were triggered at the tail end of this last week, which seemed to lie dormant only surfacing to be somewhat resolved, and hopefully dissolved. Yes, this was a difficult issue to endure and it literally drained me physically and emotionally and yet I'm wondering, was this random? I'm sure that some of the readers out there are aware that just a few days ago a cosmic event occurred known as a ''super moon'' and I'm just wondering if it's possible that I wasn't alone during this cosmic turbulence so to speak, and wonder if others have had a strange weekend as well. I'm not a firm believer in the cosmos affecting our lives but I'm beginning to question that belief, I mean is it possible that there is some kind of influence here? I'm not an avid horoscope reader but once in awhile I'll look up my astrological sign and lo and behold, it's dead on, not all the time, but yeah, sometimes I'll read my 'scope and say to myself ''wow! this is happening to me'' Some eyes will roll, but stranger things have happened yet I'm beginning to wonder if astrology really influences our lives. Look no further than Universal intelligence and it's perfect design, even more going back to ancient history [the golden age] where humans were in direct contact with the cosmos which influenced every aspect of their lives. Perhaps the age of the skeptic is passing and the realms of possibility are stepping in, of course in our age we rely too much on technology and we're always looking down for answers instead of up. I believe that sooner rather than later more evidence will show itself, that in these times we'll witness things happening in the cosmos that we never realized before, and as well, how much we are influenced and effected by them. If you've had a lot of emotional turbulence this past week you are not alone, keep your eyes to the sky!

RESOLVE AND DISSOLVE

In the last post I covered the topic of anger and suppressed emotions that will surface to be dealt with so you can march onward to successful creation, but there's more, and I wanted to add to the subject at hand. During the past weekend when unexpected issues surfaced I had no choice but to face them head on and deal with them, I really had to be honest with myself and truly decide what to keep and what to let go of as I have certain attachments I'd have to sort through. It can get tricky with this process because the wounded mind will get involved and try to reason with everything that's happening and search for a solution that suits itself, this is where you must reach into your heart and discover what your TRUE intentions are, but with the involvement of the rational mind it can be a major challenge. We are in control when it comes to what we really want in life, but at the same time we MUST be completely honest with ourselves about what's working and what's not working when it comes to improving our circumstances. This can be the hardest when we're dealing with other people, especially those we care about, because face it, some people will hold you back, we'll cling on to them emotionally or they to us, and it can be emotionally hard to let them go. This applies to everything we want to keep in our reality, I can honestly say that I've downsized significantly when it comes to certain things in my life, a lot of things that interested me just a few years ago are no longer relevant in my life anymore, of course, I've had to sort through those things of question in my life, those things that I wanted to remain in my reality and I'm still doing this now, but I'm gaining more clarity and it seems that the things I'm most passionate about I choose to remain in my current reality. If I could offer any advise to anyone on what to keep or what to let go of it would be to hold on to your truest passions, of course the mind will question and rationalize what is or isn't your true passion so it may try to confuse you about all this, but it is ultimately your decision so try to feel it in the heart and leave your mind out of it. What about people in question? that's a hard one, again, listen to your heart and discover if the person you care deeply about is either supporting you or draining you. If there is something you truly want to keep in your reality but you have resistance around it try to uncover the reason for this, it may be a limiting belief you've held making you feel uncertain that what you want to keep in your reality is right or wrong. Keep in mind that there is no right or wrong here, it's all about how something makes you feel, and if it feels really bad to let go of something you'd rather keep, just clean up your energy around that subject/thing and let go of your negative/limited beliefs around it so that you are a match to it, this way it can remain in your reality without question. I almost bought into the idea that I would have to give up almost everything just to get something that I wanted, but in truth I only had to give up those things that were sapping my energy and most of those things were inside of me, not outside of me, but when I let something go inside of me it sort of dissolved outside of me. Doing this energy work on a consistent basis means sifting through everything and that includes internally and externally, but aside from desiring more out of life we may also desire to keep something in our life because it brings us joy despite what others may think or believe, do not feel guilty because of this! It's funny that this subject isn't covered too much with personal development and when it is, you're bombarded with these ideas that desiring certain things and acquiring material possessions is spiritually wrong, but who decides that?, why would we ever question or judge ourselves when it comes to wanting that beautiful luxury sports car?, [guys!] that beautiful home on the beach?, that dining set you've fallen in love with that you've purchased for your dinner party to impress your closest friends? [ladies!] Why feel guilty for any desire? We exist and therefor we deserve, our Universe does not judge our desires, desire is the human condition and it's a beautiful thing, the world has everything to offer and you can have whatever you want as long as it makes you feel good! What I'm learning is that there are issues of undeserving at play in most of us, we feel guilty for wanting more, even for what we already have, we'll wonder whether we should continue having something and tossing it away out of guilt because we're afraid that it's spiritually wrong or we're terrified of what others think. You desire something for a reason, but to receive that desire you will have to feel the essence of it, because behind every desire is a feeling and that includes those things that you wish to remain in your reality, it's really not that THING, it's what it brings you and that's the only question you should be asking yourself honestly, ''what does this thing bring to me?'' and that includes people as well. Like I mentioned above, this subject isn't covered much out there, we all want to have more but what about what we already have? what should we keep and what should we get rid of? That's entirely up to us, we are not being judged here for the things we have in our lives and whether we have so much or so little doesn't matter, but I'm discovering that what I DO have, I'm GRATEFUL for, and I've tipped the scales of being more grateful for what I ALREADY have, rather than thinking about what I still don't have. So what this post means in a nutshell is don't question anything that makes you happy, whether it's coming or already in your reality, if it truly adds to your happiness just appreciate it, it's that simple, you deserve it and you can keep it!

TRIGGERED

Terrific Tuesday everyone! As seen, a lot of visitors are viewing this blog site and I just want to take the time to appreciate all of you who are stopping by with the highest hopes that you receive some inspiration from these posts. I'm not a perfect man, in fact I'm STILL a work in progress and probably will be for some time, but this [deliberate creation stuff] isn't about being perfect, striving for perfection is just plain delusional thinking, so we must accept ourselves for who we are at any given present moment, with that aside, I had another issue from my past [triggered?] surface just last weekend and it took a lot of mental discipline to overcome it. There are always going to be suppressed emotions hiding in the nooks and crannies of the darkest corners of our minds and until they're dealt with, they'll be a vibrational burden that pisses all over our fairies and rainbows.[lol] In the past I've had extreme anger issues about people and life in general, and in some cases those anger issues came with self hatred and self blame, some pretty messed up stuff and that's an understatement! A few days ago I discovered some of these issues were still lying dormant in the dark corners of my mind and boy did I feel them! It didn't take a whole lot to trigger these hidden emotions which took me by surprise so I know they surfaced for a reason, with this anger came the fear of BEING angry and although I did my best to suppress it there was no way to escape facing it head on, so I just let it overtake me for awhile even going as far to embracing it. You will find that it will take more courage than you could ever fathom to face up to your own biggest fears, becoming a deliberate creator is not for the faint of heart, as you are coming up against yourself and your beliefs, fears, and eventually, your true potential. Some say anger can be a good motivator and this is true to some extent, but when you've had anger issues such as myself that are buried deep and need resolving, you'll have to surrender to them so they can dissolve and should you resist them, you'd be compounding the problem and feeding the negative momentum. I've also realized that in my early days of discovering law of attraction [2010 to around 2013] I was suppressing a lot of negative emotions out of fear of believing that only positive thinking would guarantee success with law of attraction, of course this belief was delusional. Every issue past or present, EVERY one of them, must be dealt with, there is no escaping it, you cannot bypass any issue, it WILL surface and it WILL need to be cleaned up or you cannot move forward, there may be MANY layers of issues to resolve and dissolve. I've learned that while past issues are resolving more clarity is gained and I get that much closer to aligning to my TRUE desires, what this also does is it narrows everything down a little more, meaning that my preferences are changing during the releasing process. You may find that what you THOUGHT you wanted before, you may no longer want now, this is because you'll get more clarity as you resolve issues that have been holding you back or draining you emotionally, it is a time when you discover what to keep or what to let go of, the good news is only you get to decide, no one or nothing outside of you is judging you or calling the shots, so you must be completely honest with yourself. Anger is a natural emotion and it's unavoidable, after all, we're only human, and yes it has shown to be a prime motivator for change when you've had enough, but less is better when it comes to anger because it can be a HUGE drain on our energy.

DELUSION OF GRANDEUR

During my waking up phase [still waking up to some degree] there were some days where I just felt like crawling under a rock and hiding from the world. With increasing awareness comes increasing knowledge, sometimes it's unavoidable when everywhere you turn someone or something is reminding you that all is not well in this world, the mainstream media is the main culprit here. A close friend of mine has been following the republican debates here in the U.S. for well over a month, for the sake of sheer entertainment only, I myself have caught a brief glimpse of this ''wannabe reality TV circus debate'' for the next presidency and felt compelled to write my own take on all things politics and deliberate creation. A circus these debates are indeed, and while I've hung up voting for anybody or anything well over a decade now, it was just recently [a few years ago] that I've decided to take responsibility for my own life and that included thinking for myself. It would seem that after decades of failed policies people would stop voting for politicians who continue to be in the pockets of mass corporations, unfortunately there are those who are delusional and believe voting for the ''right'' person will make the world and theirs, a much better place, they're convinced by all this talk of more jobs being created, better health care policies being implemented, and strong foreign policies that will bring peace instead of war. Why time and time again people buy into all these empty promises mystifies me, but it would appear that a majority of those who vote, do so from a place of fear. It's of no surprise that a majority of voters watch the news regularly, how else would they be aware of the problems in the world?, and when election time rolls around, they would head to the booth and cast their vote, with hopes that the person they chose to vote for, can ''fix'' what's broken, makes you wonder doesn't it? When I chose to take personal responsibility for everything that happens in my own life I discarded ''outside'' ideas and influences that conflicted with my new truths, I discovered that the only person that could ACTUALLY make the world a better place was ME, by being a free thinker and believing that I and I only, am responsible for my own reality by choosing my own beliefs/perceptions, as well as what I am thinking and feeling, and as a result, creating. There is no need to rely on outside influences to fix problems that do not affect me or things that are beyond my own control, I've got better and more important things to do as my happiness isn't dependent upon someone/something else. Making the world a better place must come from one individual at a time, by changing their perception, waking up, and seeing the truth for what it really is, instead of multitudes of people buying into the media's fear and looking for a ''one'' savior, who promises to make all their problems go away, only failing to deliver. There is reality and then there is delusion, but things aren't what they seem, we could have it all backwards, what IS reality, is simply illusion, reality can be manipulated or changed, but delusion is simply wanting to believe something that just isn't a truth. I myself, will steer clear of all this 2016 presidential campaign hoopla, I've got WAY better things to do with my time instead of worrying about the problems in this world and looking for someone else to fix them. It's funny though, the very solution to everything is inside of ALL of us, and since we are connected to ''all that is'' the effort would be a hell of a lot smoother and easier than scrambling to the voting booths and looking for an outside fix, lose the news!

UN-SCHOOLED

Good Wednesday morning, afternoon, evening, wherever you may be, and thank you kindly for stopping by! I am, as I've mentioned before, by no means an expert on the subject of conscious creation, I too, am learning as I go and continue to be a work in progress, but I'll have to admit that the more I move forward, the more I realize that everything I've known before was not serving me at all. With everything that was taught to me, especially in my school years, I can now see why I dropped out of high school. Before I continue I just want to make clear that I am not encouraging anyone reading this article to drop out of school, this is purely from my own personal experience and what knowledge I'VE gained from it. Every thing was fine until junior high school, I loved elementary school because most of the time the class would create and make things, we'd paint, mold clay, do gift exchanges, candy and treats were handed out daily to the class, math and the alphabet were sung, rewards were handed out for best conduct and the most creative student, all sorts of good stuff happening in the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grades. By the 4th grade I had to begin learning about history, more complicated mathematics, and spelling, then by the fifth grade current events, politics, and historical figures past and present, plus even more unimportant history because it was the bicentennial year of 1977, there was a bunch of hype around it at the time. During the 5th grade there were ''assignments'' and homework that took away the fun that used to exist in elementary school, by then my interest began to wane with school. By the 6th grade I hated going to school, and it would be almost three more years of losing interest [skipping school] in all things education, only to finally drop out at the beginning of my ninth year. Looking back, I didn't need to know everything they were teaching me and I have no regret for leaving, everything that school taught me was counter productive to everything I know now, nothing they taught me from 4th grade on has benefited nor resonated with me in any way, all I've learned from the so-called ''education system'' is that you have to attend school every day, then you must finish [graduate] high school, then you must go to college and graduate there, then you must work very hard until retirement, and if you're lucky you can enjoy the rest of your life, how's THAT working out in America today? And what about personal development? Where does that fit into the education system? I can safely say that MY perspective on personal development is a WHOLE lot different than that of the educational system's perspective, shall I illustrate? The education system was created by, you guessed it, the system, and it's all about teaching conformity to those that believe that a proper education is the only route to true success, again, how's that working in these times? Look no further than the student loan debt in this country, the biggest in history, most college graduates are working minimum wage jobs and barely getting by despite working hard all through school and getting good grades. And what about law of attraction? why don't they teach that in school? why wouldn't our education system teach us how to empower ourselves instead of teaching us how to conform to the average ''working class'' system? It was only a matter of time until the education system would ''implode'' and leave millions of students in debt and struggling to find high paying jobs, so do we really need the current education system to be successful in life? Really, we don't! I've said it before and I'll say it again, we have the power within OURSELVES to mold our own reality and create our own dreams, and nothing ''outside'' of ourselves can even come close, it only leads to struggle and hard work when we rely on something that teaches us that we must ''earn'' our dream and no other way is acceptable in society. Times are changing, and this writer has indeed become ''un-schooled'' and I simply cannot credit personal development from any school [educational system] nor it's teachings, my newfound knowledge came much later in my life and the educational system's teachings are nowhere near compatible with those of personal development/deliberate creation. I hope that in some countries, there are good educational systems that are funded properly and benefit those who choose to learn, as well as those who are teaching, that they're passionate about what they do, and they enjoy their work, so everyone could benefit, but here in America, not so much! I'm glad I walked away from the ''education system'' and lived my life in a more ''self taught'' mannerism, I wouldn't be who I am today were it not for this ''learning from my own mistakes'' approach, sure, most would think that I ''messed'' up my life by dropping out of school, but it's quite truly the opposite actually. Think about it this way, how many millionaires and billionaires are high school/college dropouts? look it up and you'd be very surprised!

ANOTHER NEW LOOK

The blog site has a whole new look so stop by and see what's happening, a whole new level of conscious creation is taking place as I'm entering into a successful [lucky] phase with the law of attraction, I look forward to sharing my many successes with hopes that they help to inspire you as well as help you to succeed with your own greatest intentions.