I ''surrender''

Greetings and well being readers, in past posts I've covered topics about detachment and letting go, but today I'm going a little deeper on the practice of surrender. When we think of surrender we associate it with giving up, this giving up is usually tied in with negative emotions, for example, ''I give up, I can't take it anymore!'', or ''this is'nt working for me, I'm done!'' These examples are not surrendering, most think that surrender is giving up power, it's quite the opposite actually, surrender is, in itself, a very powerful experience, as well as a liberating experience. Here is surrendering in a spiritual nutshell, because I've practiced and experienced this firsthand lately, and I have found that surrender cannot just happen, it has to be applied first, by detachment and letting go, we open ourselves up to surrender, at first it seems hard to do, we give up control completely, handing it all to source energy, and if we can practice and learn surrender, the rewards are astronomical!  I believe there comes a time in the journey of conscious creation that at a point we've done all the work we can do, I'm experiencing this now myself.  At the beginning my work was cut out for me, finding, recognizing, and clearing limiting beliefs, visualizing the desire achieved, alligning to my higher self, monitering my thoughts, detaching from the outcome, letting go, and doing all  the tecniques to maintain self mastery over my emotions. After all this, two and a half years later I hit a big wall, ''now what?'' I asked myself, at that point I felt like giving up, I could'nt understand,  was this what all this has come to?, so I waited for manifestation, thinking it was the next logical step, and that's just what happened, waiting, then frustrstion came in, and it grew to anger, before I knew it, I had felt like I'd backstepped two years, but at the same time my beliefs were ripe for allignment for what I wanted, and manifestations were still popping up. So I'm REALLY at a cross road, looking for clarity, but not getting it, then two days later it hit me, walking on the nature trail, I had detached, the best I could,  I practiced letting go, or so I thought, but did I?, if  I'd  really let go why am I at this cross road?, because even though I thought I'd let go I really had'nt, or I would'nt be at this cross road. There were days where I could let go more than others, was it enough?, obviously not, and I be'lieve source was trying to teach me something very valuable here, as painful as it was I finally spilled it out, ''that's it, I surrender, I relenquish control, I'm handing it all over to my higher self'', you see, I've done all the work, and I was still holding on, thinking I had to keep working towards manifesting the BIG stuff, but when actually my work was done, it was a slap on the back of my head from source energy, '' stop, you are good now, let me deliver your big stuff now.''
True surrender is a feeling like nothing else, it feels awesome!, it's trust ten fold, it's relief, it's liberation, it's KNOWING, it's feeling connected to all that is, best yet, it's knowing that no matter what, everything will work out, no matter what's happening outside of us, surrender is total belief in the unseen,  it's knowing things are happening behind the scenes, and we all get what we want! I will touch more on surrender in future posts as I learn more of this practice.       Back soon!