Undoing the damage done

Back again fellow co-creators!  first, thanks a ''MILLION'' for visiting this blog, I hope it is helping some of the readers who are on the path of creation as I am. When I first read the book the secret 48 months ago I was off and running with creating the new life, I thought wow,  I just think what I want, and voila! it's mine, I even managed to manifest a few things within a month or so, before bed at night, I would read a chapter until I felt sleep coming, then would do a short visual smiling then snoozing off. Then came a job, even more, a construction job, soon after, it was all job, no deliberate creation, It was'nt that I could'nt do both, it was just  more focus on the job, it was this job that took the creation process, and pushed it to the side, and guess what, I became stressed and miserable again. Fast forward  20 months later, I watched the secret DVD,  this time it sunk a little deeper, I watched it over and over, it was settled, I was going in for the long haul this time, no more slacking, I was in to win! I took concious action, decided what ''things'' I wanted, half assed compared to what I practice now! A few months passed, nothing, I began questioning what I was doing wrong, I thought this should get easier, instead, it  just got harder, the more I said this, the more discouraged I got, then came frustration, and the negative spiral began. Once again, I was about to toss in the towel,, but something told me to not give up, not this time, no, I'm seeing this through!  Back to the drawing board, I had to see what was blocking me, the answer smacked me upside the head, I had been conditioned most of this life, with limiting beliefs, low self esteem, success came working hard til death, and there was a limit to what I could  be, do, or have. Those were not empowering beliefs at all, as a matter of fact, these were just  plain counter-productive, there was ALOT of mental work to do, all inner, because nothing outside was changing until I cleaned up inside! Before I continue fellow readers, don't let this next sentence discourage, we are all different and unique, I speak from personal experience, this has been the most difficult and painstaking thing I have ever  had to do in this entire life! It has taken me almost 22 months to clear decades of limiting beliefs, and there is still work to be done, but fear not, during this process of  mood swings, ups and downs, getting most of what is not wanted, and sometimes what IS wanted, and bouts of chemicalization, (I will discuss this subject in a later post), it does begin to smooth out. The ego will  want to give up over and over, don't listen to it!
It  does get better,  I'm proof, I manifest miracles at a constant, evedence of what i desire shows up as signs to let me know it's coming fast! When one chooses to persevere, one is rewarded, each level becomes a new breakthrough, and so on, until it is mastered. In the next post, I want to share some of the clearing methods I've used that have given me this awesome transformation in happiness, self love, and powerul creation, don't miss it, until next time soon!