Happy new year of awareness

Hello everyone!, I'm back, ''HAPPY NEW YEAR!'' hope you all had an awesome one. Boy, I gotta say, this holiday season was very exciting and unusual, bieng on my journey, and being with others of simular goals was indeed exciting, the parties, the food, the drink, and the fun!. I have never experienced the holidays like I did 2011/2012. As a matter of fact it was different for everyone I knew, although I was unable to spend them in the pacific northwest with my parents, I'm grateful I had my good friends here with me in phoenix. There were two sad tragedies that struck at home mid 2010 and another 2011 just  before christmas, and while I wont go into it, it has given me a new perspective on life, and the importance of it. Before this journey, I use to be a complainer, I always found things to be angry or upset about, to put it plainly, life just sucked!, and it sure did'nt do my health any good. In the past when a tragedy or loss would strike the family, it would always give me a reason to spiral even further into anger and resentment, I would say ''why this, is'nt my life screwed up enough?, why the hell did this happen?,'' downward I went, worrying selfishly about how it affects me without thinking about how others feel about the loss or tragedy, and believe me, I've had my share, and some of my personal
tragedies I created myself. While there are tragedies and losses we cannot control, we can control how we handle them, its hard I know, but it's how we react to them that gets us either to a place of understanding and healing, or a place of  depression and illness. Since I began this journey into connecting to source and awareness I now look at tragedy and loss in a different way, and boy I've come to believe more than ever that what does not strike us down, makes us more powerful!. As I enter my 5th decade on this earth I'm beginning to understand how things really work and why they happen the way they happen, the purpose of this post  is not about death and tragedy, but how it changes our lives, and what those we lost want from us, to carry on, be happy, keep only the good memories, because where they are, is a place we could never imagine, we won't know until we get there, until we do we've got to know all is well, for them and us, that death is not an end, but a beginning! Sort of takes the fear of passing away, dosen't it?, thats how it should be, thats what our loved ones want. I realize this post goes a little deep, but as I've said, It's been that kind of holiday, but I'm okay and I'm beginning to learn and understand our purpose and how we handle loss, in a way I think, it prepares us, shows us it's not as bad as it's made out to be, after all, this IS a lifelong journey, the real rewards come after, you may be surprised who you may bump into at that new beginning. Before I go I wish you all a very happy, prosperous, abundant, and wealthy new 2012! This is going to be an amazing year, keep up the awareness and growth, we are headed for exciting times, most of all thanx for visiting this post, I promise my next to be just as interesting, but lighter and funnier! Until next time soon!